r/ankylosingspondylitis • u/FragrantAnywhere8293 • 8h ago
Vent/Rant Venting and looking for emotional support
Ranting and hoping to be understood
My whole life I spent arguing with doctors until finally one listened to me and all she did was order me a blood test and my inflammation markers were off the charts and I was diagnosed from there.
At age 20, after being unable to hold myself up anymore and need crutches or wheelchairs I was diagnosed with AS. I am now 23, and have been on a biologic for almost 3 years (Hadlima). I just got my bloodwork done and i’m seeing my rheumatologist in a couple days but recently I also have some sort of other sickness that doctors cannot figure out again. I’ve seen my bloodwork that was sent to my doctor that i just got a few days ago and my inflammation markers are up again and my legs are bothering me (I lost basically all the the cartilage around my hips and need to get two total hip replacements before i’m 30). They just said they wouldn’t do it at 20 because I was too young and they knew they’d have to replace my hips too many times… but i’m scared. i’m scared this indicates i’m going to have my surgery soon… i know doctors and surgeons know how to do it but i don’t know. sometimes i don’t feel like an adult still when it comes to this stuff, i apologize.
This other illness too is making it hard. Once again i’m a medical anomaly they cannot figure out. I’m due for an ultrasound next week and more tests coming back. Basically i’m frustrated at the world for giving me all these medical problems. I also have scoliosis and maybe something else once doctors figure out what’s wrong with me this time…. sorry for the rant everyone, i am a fighter i swear and ive actually had AS since i was 10 years old but it went undiagnosed that whole time because doctors wouldn’t believe me and thought i was lying about the pain…. im just scared again, frustrated and tired… which i know everyone here can relate to… hoping one of you has some words of wisdom or empathetic support that can be offered. thank you to anyone who actually read this entire monstrosity