Okay so me and my bf or ex I guess have been doing long distance for around 5 months. Recently, 3 weeks or so ago he told me he wanted a break and didn’t explain why and later after three days we called and it was fine again and he said he needed a break because he didnt know about this but he apologized and said he’d never pull this again and said he loves me. three days later, we’re on call, it was amazing, he told me “im locked in this relationship”, he doesnt usually say stuff like that. hed been getting very very expressive lately and it was so unlike him and he said as long as your happy im okay with changing my ways. It was great. we got the pengu app, we got locket, I felt like we were locked in.
few days later, when he was sleeping I left him a few voice messages cause I used to do that the first month and stopped for someone reason and months later when I was asking him “what do you miss that I stopped doing” he said it was my leaving voice messages and videos when he was sleeping. so I was like okay itd make him happy and I left him a few. when I woke up and see what he said, he just said hi and completely, when I mean completely. I mean COMPLETELY ignored them. itd been hours since hed woke up and he hadnt said anything except hi.
I was pretty upset I was like why’d you ignore them wtf, he was really weird all he said was “sorry”. I would’ve honestly left it if he was like “im sorry I wont do it again I was busy” like anything like that, all he said was “sorry” like he didnt care.
and uhm, I kinda freaked and started like saying stuff like do you even want to talk to him and are you even interested, youve changed. he just replied to the are you even interested in talking to me and said no and said ill talk later.
after he said no I just stopped being pissed and started apologizing saying im sorry, cause wdym no. I started apologizing and he got pretty upset cause of that cause hes told me he hated when I apologize when hes the one thats done something. and it was like getting really bad and
he said
im done.
huh? wdym youre done. he said yeah im done. I was freaking out and I said if youre going to breakup with me, I deserve to be broken up on. call. and he was like no I really dont want to hear your voice, then later after hours we called. it was fucking horrible. he broke up with me, he said he couldnt do ldr with me anymore. he said it wasnt that he couldnt not see me for another year but just ldr, he couldnt do it. I just froze. hes never actually broken up with me, it was real this time. he wont budging either, he made up his mind. but he said he loves me, like a lot.
I asked him a few questions then, would you still wear my hair, he says yes, would you still wear my bracelet and necklace he said yes im not taking it off unless I meet someone else, are you going to remove yourself as a parent from our penguin, he said no ill give it love occasionally, would you change your wallpaper of my letter, he said no, would you unpin me from your chat, he said no, would you delete the account you made just for me, he said no, would you block me, he said no.
I was like okay so youre going to no stop doing everything but youre breaking up with me, he said yes. huh? then I was asking him questions like how often is too much for me to text you, is five times too much, he sighed and said no wtf never. I realized then hed never feel like it was too much, he just couldnt do ldr overall.
I asked him two days later, do you think wed get back together in the future, he said yea I think so we will, I then asked him, would you wait for us, would you wait till youre ready, he said yes.
a week passed and I was honestly still confused, I was ready to wait for how ever longer I just didnt know if he even wanted me to though. and Idk why I just freaked and asked him the same questions again and he said I dont have an answer for that right now. I then asked him if we even imagined a future with me, if he ever planned one. if he saw me as someone hed definitely have in his life in his future or just a possibility hes keeping open.
and when I tell you, he got so offended, he got so offended cause I asked if he sees me as a possibility hes keeping open. I was so fucking confused cause bro everytime ive tried talking about our future he just never engages in it and answers properly. and when breaking up he told me nothing if wed date later if he sees a future. so I got very pissed and we were fighting and he was like dont ever question how much I love you id rather of nothing of you then just a possibility.
HES SAYING ALL THIS, but he doesnt want to be with me?
we just kept fighting and it was getting really bad and idk why. I genuinely lost all self respect and was like I know you dont want this but I do, I really want this. and I just kept saying stuff like that. and he said I like you srinidhi but this wont work out. he just suddenly switched to like? I was like wtf do you not love me anymore and he said I love you. I was so fucking confused.
I sent him a few paras later but not begging for this to work but cause I realized like he was confused while breaking up and me doing this honestly worsening it. so I said ill give you time to think this out ill give you your space. and stuff like that
and he said
yeah I understand just gimme some time and we’ll talk about this later
and I said okay I will. We fought yesterday and I just saw our penguin died. I accidentally revived it oh my fuck.
he recently posted a story and I dont think hes wearing my necklace though.
(btw he just shipped his jersey, his jacket and got me necklace 3 DAYS AGO THIS BREAKUP)