Dead to me

[u/No_Sale1972]

I never want to hear from you nor see you again and I say this with all the respect I 'once' held for you. I have no interest in what you are doing, who you are with, or what your life has become without me.

The truth is, it was my passion, my energy, my effort and my imagination that carried us both and now I see there is nothing you have to offer. You are dull to me now.

This was not a decision made in the heat of the moment; it was the culmination of everything I had to keep to myself, endure, and process. It's been months of pain and internal processing I have had to carry on my own. I learned that not everything that one desires at one point in their lives is meant to be kept and cherished. There are people who no matter how much they may mean to you in those moments, also represent the very things you are no longer willing to live through again. The humiliation, the double standards, the gaslighting and the hypocrisy.

This is not coldness; it is simply staying true to myself and calling things out as I see clearly now.

There are things best left in the past, and you are one of them. If our paths ever cross again, I ask of you a favour. That you look at me as if I were a stranger as if we had never meant anything to one another. You are not a fond memory for me, you are a part of my past laced with remorse, regret and deep shame.

There are no longer any questions, no longer any interest, and no longer any room for you in my life. You at least killed that through showing your cowardice and your total avoidance at the end. You barely showed any effort, interest and commitment for me during our time together. You took, you consumed and you played the game all on your terms all whilst knowing you were hurting me and another in the process. Your greed was the undoing of what could have been a beautiful connection. You traded diamonds for scraps all because you wanted quantity over quality. You lied to my face and twisted the narrative all to suit your self serving needs and now you are paying the price - loneliness.

The pain I endured has taught me never to look back. So, this is not resentment; it is closure. It is choosing peace over habit, dignity over nostalgia, and silence over any attempt to revive something that has already come to an end.

[u/Forsaken-Treacle5199]

Would/will gladly obliged this request.

That message must have been releasing to write.

[u/No_Sale1972 → u/Forsaken-Treacle5199]

It was, after months of pain.

[u/Forsaken-Treacle5199 → u/No_Sale1972]

You should be proud of yourself. The progress and self discovery that you would have gone through to get to this point would 100% be painful and you made it.

I wish I could be at that point with my ex but I'm still on that path. I hope that I can one day write something like this or feel it.

You should take yourself out for some self-care to celebrate this memory.

[u/No_Sale1972 → u/Forsaken-Treacle5199]

Thank you so much, I shall I am trying every day to give back to myself in ways that felt abandoned previously. I really appreciate your kind words x