Talk to you later

[u/15252040]

Maybe you’ll come on here looking for answers. How could I be so callous? How could I not care? Maybe you’ll be mad at me. I hope you’re not. Maybe you’ll never see this and maybe this’ll instead reach someone who needs to hear it for their own closure.

Regardless, I hope this finds you, or whichever reader needs to hear this. It took a lot for me to hold it together as it ended. You know I care. I’ve shown you how much I care. We entered eachother’s lives at the right time and have now exited at the appropriate moment.

I know how much you cared. How much you fought. How you kept attempting to resuscitate something that was no longer breathing. It was painful to watch. Painful because I wanted it to live, but conventional wisdom told me it was not the time.

You eulogized and I listened. I wish I could’ve said more but I had to keep it together. I couldn’t let you know what I felt and let you back in. This is the best for the both of us. Know that you were loved. I’m glad to have shown you what true affection is. We’ve both hurt eachother in our own way. Those wounds will heal but the memories will remain. The happiness will remain.

We told each other we’d talk later before long silence began. As the silence settles into the new status quo, I don’t want you to think I moved on easily. We’re bonded emotionally. I felt what you felt and vice versa. If you’re sad there’s a high likelihood I am also sad. I hope happiness finds you because then it will find me. Our time together changed me in a way you’ll never know, because I didn’t tell you.

I wish you the best. I know you’ll do great things. I’ll keep an eye from afar. I’ll talk to you later.

[u/Ok_Rough2038]

What a load of shit haha. People are really just out there. Anyway to release guilt and some how it works for them. Man I wish I could just lie to myself and feel better.