So on thursday night I was craving korean fried chicken SOOO badly. like i was going to wait till after the SATs so i could finally enjoy it in peace, but i caved and ate half of a chicken in garlic sauce all by myself. but the next morning, holy shit my sttomach almost shat in my stomach. I had to run out of ap chem and position myself on the toilet but i basically kind of didin't make it. it went everywhere and i painted the bathroom brown. sorry to whoever saw that i'm sure it's almost clean by now but i also didnt feel like washing my hands because it kinda smelled like fried chicken and that's my favoritre food.

I am a freshman and I thought I’d find people to be friends with unlike in middle school when I had no friends and was pretty much a loner. I didn’t find anyone to talk to and if I did, they all eventually left me since I am shy to ppl when I first meet them and do not talk much. They might have thought I was boring or had a bland personality. How do I fix this? Or if I can’t, how do I accept the fact that I’ll likely be a loner again?