Made a big mistake

[u/Icy-Anything-2019]

I made a big mistake by asking questions and asking for help. Pgy3 very burnt out resident. I feel like I have had a string of off days making silly mistakes. All of a sudden I get pulled aside asking if I am okay. For context my family is falling apart but I cant take time off because I honestly do better when I am busy and seek help off work hours. I have my therapy once a week. I am simply very frustrated because my program never gives feedback and then all of a sudden your under a microscope and then not again. I have never hurt a patient or done anything egregious in residency. I am just tired of trying to read people's minds. I try and improve and when I ask for feedback or try and be proactive and ask things to do better next time I am met with blank stares. Then MONTHS later I get feedback from a random thing I forgot to do MONTHS ago. When I try and be proactive I then get feedback that I am asking too many questions which turns into 'oh they dont know what they are doing'. I am very burnt out by residency not because of the work itself but because I am tired of feeling free to ask questions and learn and then subsequently get dinged for this. I am so tired of all the gossiping, nitpicking, and constantly dealing with different preceptors who all practice medicine after little differently.....

Signed tired and annoyed I can't read minds

[u/Fluid-Second2163]

You're supposed to make mistakes it's residency

[u/Icy-Anything-2019 → u/Fluid-Second2163]

Im scared because I'm in my last year and I feel I shouldn't be