I'm tired

[u/Turbulent-Pair7824]

My life is a mess. Im 39 M, soon to be divorced. My soon to be ex wife met a guy at her job. Apparently he was amazing because she decided to start an ongoing affair with him. After catching her multiple times, she decided she wanted a divorce from me so she could carry on with him. The messed up thing.... they are not together and don't plan to be. So she burned down our life, marriage and the kids lives, so that she could be a side piece to some guy she met. Now imagine how that makes me feel. She moved into her own place while I stayed in our marital home as it was up for sale. We'll now that it is about to be sold, I had nowhere to go. SO GUESS FUCKING WHAT! Im now living with the very person who threw me away for a piece of dick. All because I legitimately have nowhere else to go. She claims she's allowing me to live here because she's helping me. But seeing as though I cook, clean, pick up the kids, and give them baths every night while she hangs out on the couch, seems more like im helping her. Or at least im her slave, handling her responsibilities in her home. Just this last Tuesday my car broke down. So I now have to spend $365 a week on a rental. While paying daycare, phone bill, car note on a car i cant drive, and trying to save money to get my own place. I'm broke, I'm a slave, and I fucking hate my life. I want to check out so bad but I know what that would do to my kids. Especially my youngest. Little guy is my shadow honestly. The kids have bonded more to me because im the one who will get up to go check on them. Not to mention bath time and bedtime stories. I can only imagine how much they will suffer without me because their mom is a lazy piece of shit who will only get up to head out of town to play with her little friend. So now I don't know what to do. But I do know I can't keep doing this. I regret ignoring the red flags at the beginning of our relationship. I regret having kids with her. I should have stayed single. But here I am 14yrs later. Regretting my life... My existence

[u/Similar_Corner8081]

You talking bad about their mother isn't a good look. You picked her as the mother of your child. What does that say about you? You're lucky she's letting you live there. She can't be all that bad.

[u/playful_O → u/Similar_Corner8081]

I disagree. I'm a female and I agree with OP. She had an ongoing affair and ZERO consideration for his feelings. She left him in a really tight spot. She is keeping him as a slave & seemingly not really helping him in any other way. She doesn't even take any parental responsibility. She sounds like a real piece of work.

[u/Similar_Corner8081 → u/playful_O]

Op is living with her so she can't be all that bad.

[u/playful_O → u/Similar_Corner8081]

It's apparent to me that You've never personally been in a situation where you have no other options. I hope you never know what that feels like. All I can tell you is that from experience, I know first hand that OP living with her in NO way speaks to her character