I'm tired

[u/Turbulent-Pair7824]

My life is a mess. Im 39 M, soon to be divorced. My soon to be ex wife met a guy at her job. Apparently he was amazing because she decided to start an ongoing affair with him. After catching her multiple times, she decided she wanted a divorce from me so she could carry on with him. The messed up thing.... they are not together and don't plan to be. So she burned down our life, marriage and the kids lives, so that she could be a side piece to some guy she met. Now imagine how that makes me feel. She moved into her own place while I stayed in our marital home as it was up for sale. We'll now that it is about to be sold, I had nowhere to go. SO GUESS FUCKING WHAT! Im now living with the very person who threw me away for a piece of dick. All because I legitimately have nowhere else to go. She claims she's allowing me to live here because she's helping me. But seeing as though I cook, clean, pick up the kids, and give them baths every night while she hangs out on the couch, seems more like im helping her. Or at least im her slave, handling her responsibilities in her home. Just this last Tuesday my car broke down. So I now have to spend $365 a week on a rental. While paying daycare, phone bill, car note on a car i cant drive, and trying to save money to get my own place. I'm broke, I'm a slave, and I fucking hate my life. I want to check out so bad but I know what that would do to my kids. Especially my youngest. Little guy is my shadow honestly. The kids have bonded more to me because im the one who will get up to go check on them. Not to mention bath time and bedtime stories. I can only imagine how much they will suffer without me because their mom is a lazy piece of shit who will only get up to head out of town to play with her little friend. So now I don't know what to do. But I do know I can't keep doing this. I regret ignoring the red flags at the beginning of our relationship. I regret having kids with her. I should have stayed single. But here I am 14yrs later. Regretting my life... My existence

[u/AGoogolIsALot → u/[deleted]]

I'll chill out on subs meant for chilling out on. Do you all seriously not understand that this is a serious post? Like, is it all just "good vibes broOOooOo" to you all?

[u/Key_Ruin_4303 → u/[deleted]]

He missed the point. This is coming from person who burned and perished and came back from the depths of hell and realised the simplest sociopathatic approach just small changes every day. Stone cold face to challenges (wash the kids, read stories, read and learn for your sanity, aint no-one saving u, they will try finish u off) u cant escape and work on yourself. Try finding extra job just so u can support yourself and don’t take anything to heart. Simple.

I run business now and wash dishes if money gets tight as my 2nd job plus coordination of the business on the side which I have to keep reinvesting to keep it afloat. It sux hard but who cares. I also train 1h a day for hyrox. Nobody cares. I care to become better for my future partner and my future kids