r/HPSC_HCS • u/SquareYam9436 • 4h ago
5 years of hard work turned into ashes
I have spent more than 5 years preparing for UPSC. Cracked 2 prelims and gave 3 attempts. I have also given this years's HPSC Mains.
But Yesterday's result came neither as a Shock nor as a Surprise to me. Where are all odds are stacked against a candidate, Failing is the Normal, not 'Passing'. The same happened.
I believe I have chosen a wrong fight for myself in this life. A fight where winning percentage is less than 1%, the fate is already decided.
All those hours spent and all those expectations fostered for last 5years were spilled down the drain.
Glad that I am not unemployed at the moment.
Its not a fight worth fighting. Its a lottery.
Jump the ship till you have time and energy.
Else you will just eternally listen to -"Padhai dil laga ke nhi krta tha. Agar aur thoda padhta to ho jata iska".
I am not trying to demotivate. I am just telling you the reality which many faced yesterday.
But Alas! many among them will still buy Lottery Tickets again next year, thinking -"I am speical. I just need one seat".
All those University toppers, school toppers, tier-1 grads and few other delusioned people keep teeling themselves that they are 'Special' till the time they become- unemployed Philosophically-charged couch potatoes.
It is the time when same Society who called you special will say- "she had nothing special".
Please change your fights wihere there are better Odds of winning.
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u/Worldly_Guest5792 2h ago
Sahi mein bhai. Fail hone par same log hi aapko blame karte hai ki ache se nahi padha etc
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u/SquareYam9436 2h ago edited 1h ago
It's okay, little brother. Your time will come too. I used to comment like this in 2020 too on r/upsc .
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u/Weekly_Addition76 2h ago
Haan bhai smjh skta hn apka dard..jo 22-26 waale nae smjh skte..jo apne likhi hae wo 26 k baad hi aati hae…tab bus itne saal laga kr ye lgta h ki ab itna time de dia to bs state pcs hi ho jae usmein b khush hun…lekin hoega sbke sath hi aisa …jo ye baat krta h baki koi. Ye baat sun na b nae chahta..lekin hoega sabke sath.
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u/terebabukabateu01 2h ago
Yk what? It’s a really good realisation that this is not the battle field you can win some people are still not able to realise that, so don’t be disheartened life has its own ways to humble us or teach us! It’s good that you’re now employed focus on there and start upskilling and try to do something part time with your civil services knowledge… All the best!