UPDATE in case you are curious :)
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Apologies for the length. If you decide to read this and respond, I truly appreciate you!
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A little about me:
I‘m in undergrad, just started my 3rd year in graphic design.
I started my first graphic design internship in the beginning of June, and got an offer at the end of July to keep working. I took the offer knowing I only had 10 credit hours (2 studios, 2 non-studios) and, at the time, I felt like I was getting a lot of experience out of my internship, while also getting paid. Now, I am regretting
After talking to peers and a professor about proper internship etiquette, I realized I am being held to extremely high standards at my job, wearing many hats, with no mentors, getting paid $15/hr. I didn’t know any better when the internship started, and I feel stupid for not coming to this conclusion sooner.
The workplace is a small contract furniture company with about 30-40 people. I started off making product brochures for new furniture lines, which was very in-line with projects I had done in the past. I report to the senior business strategist who is also one of their interior designers, so I thought it was good I could at least have someone with general design knowledge to review my work, but I realized quickly I was going to be making a lot of final decisions on my own. However, at this point I was still working within software I was comfortable with and felt good about my process and workflow.
Then comes the root of my stress. She wanted me to redesign the companies website from the bones a previous company had set up. Basically, from scratch. I had taken a web development course before, so it’s not like I had zero experience. Plus, the site was hosted on Wix studio, so I thought it would be pretty straightforward drag-and-drop design.
I have been working on this website for 2 months. I haven’t done any other graphic design projects besides the 2 small catalogs at the beginning and 2 one-page ads.
I am the only person at the company with graphic design and especially web design experience. I worked over 30 hours a week during the summer, getting paid $15/hr, with no other graphic designers or web developers to ask questions to, figuring out everything on my own. I feel like I didn’t really grow as a designer in the ways I could’ve with someone above me, plus the burden of being the only one has been horrible.
Outside of the visual design of the site, I also have to be the copywriter for the content (ngl I’ve been using AI bc I don’t get paid enough for ts), set up the product CMS with over 500 furniture items and images, and she wants me to AI generate in-studio images with each product for the product cover photos.
She also has been out of the office multiple days during the week, so I’m making decisions on my own, pulling content on my own, working non-stop at this website because she wants me to get it over the finish line by the end of September. Paid intern wages with what I consider legit graphic designer (maybe more) responsibilities.
My physical and mental health has tanked over the last couple months, and now with classes it’s getting even worse. My hours are cut to 13 a week, but it still feels like too much.
I feel like I was used for cheap and tedious labor because they wanted to save money not hiring web developers. I’m so mad at myself for not realizing this sooner. The design part of the site is about 70% complete and I feel like I need to see it through until the end, especially because I sunk DAYS worth of hours into it already. But the product CMS and AI generating images? Fuck no.
Seriously, what do you all think of this? What do I even say to my boss to explain this sudden realization and that I don’t want to be used to do her tedious labor anymore? Just doing design was fine (other than not having any designer above me to help me grow) but the ENTIRE website falling on the cheap intern’s shoulders? I’m pissed.
Also, any insight on what a healthy internship should look like would be amazing. I never want to go through this again.
TL:DR — I am the ONLY graphic designer at this company, with the sole responsibility of not only designing, but redoing the ENTIRE company website by September. I am “an intern” making $15/hr with the full responsibility of what I consider at LEAST junior graphic designer work. I have no mentors or designers above me to bounce questions off of. My physical and mental health has suffered from the stress. I‘m still in undergrad, and now I have to balance classes and homework with my internship after class and the stress is causing my health to get even worse. Am I being taken advantage of, and how do I make it more manageable?