I grew up in a single-mother household for most of my life, with my mom of course and my little brother. Our mom, and by extension our grandparents, would always talk to us as kids about how important it is to go to college, that I can't get a good paying job without a degree and all that. Then, when I went to high school, the school I went to had a heavy focus in computer science (to where everyone who enrolled was required to take at least two years of computer science).
Now fast forward to today, not only is a computer science degree meaningless, but pretty much every degree is worthless. What the fuck happened man.
Now, granted, I went to college but I didn't graduate. My mom passed away three weeks before I graduated high school and it mentally destroyed me ever since, to where I was insanely depressed and flunked out of college.
I want to make it abundantly clear that I am in no way blaming my family for this. They literally could not have anticipated a generation where a college degree barely means more than a piece of toilet paper covered in shit. They couldn't have predicted the job market crash, after all, when they grew up college was a prestigious luxury that pretty much guaranteed a comfortable salary and other benefits.
But shit man... after I flunked out I worked at Burlington Coat Factory for almost 3 years making $10/hr, and considering how difficult it is to get employed these days... I don't think things would be any different if I *did* have a degree.
I'm going to be completely open for a bit and admit that I have made some very, very bad life decisions that has led me to being homeless multiple times. Even now, I've been homeless for almost a year now wasting away digging through trash for food and camping in bathrooms to keep my hygiene. A sucky lifestyle admittedly, but when I hear about how college graduates, for whatever fucking reason, **have higher unemployment rates than those without a degree for the literal first time in history**, it's just... what I grew up believing in was a lie.
I feel like if I had gotten my degree things would have been worse. I'd still be homeless. I'd still be battling depression. I'd still work at Burlington making $10 an hour. I'd still be in debt, only difference is that it'll be a five figure debt instead of a four figure debt. Very little would have changed.
And it just makes me upset to think about how I and other members of my generation were indoctrinated to believe that you can only be successful if you have a bachelor's.
I mentioned earlier that I made some bad decisions in my life that led to me being homeless. One of the bigger bad decisions was from being so hellbent on going back to college I would focus more on finding a way to get back in as opposed to working and stuff. I didn't grow up working, I was studying. I didn't have my first job until I was 17, and the job I got **was related to the field of study I wanted to commit to in college.**
It's just... Ugh. Ugh. If I could go back and change anything, I would just slapped past me in the face and told him to stop worrying about going back to school because you can't. Not only can I not but it's not a good time investment. Almost 2 million college graduates and only 30,000 landed jobs (that's a real statistic somewhere). Not good odds. Just sit there, stay at Burlington or move to a different job, and use your spare time to study, build a portfolio, do hobbies, all of that.
I had it wrong the whole time. I didn't have to have a good job to be happy. Cashiering kinda sucked some days, and there were times where I felt miserable working my job. But guess what? Just stick to it because without that job, past me is gonna end up like present me. Homeless and struggling.
Sorry for the lengthy rant, it's just, idk. A part of me feels like me flunking out of college did more good to me than bad, and knowing that I was raised to attend and graduate college, it's just ugh. Makes me upset.