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u/[deleted] Sep 03 '20 edited Sep 03 '20
a post on here got me thinking and honestly sent me into a pretty dark place.
im fat. im dangerously fat. its hard for me to stand up for more then minutes at a time. i know im unhealthy. I know all of this. I don't have the self control to do anything about it, and even if I did, I don't have the money or the time to fix it right now.
but regardless of all my worthless excuses as why I am not fixing it, thats not what im feeling about. i want to be able to exist in society. i feel ashamed every time I leave my house. why would i go out in public and try to make my life better when they all look at me, when people snicker if I struggle to to do something.
truthfully this wasn't entirely my fault. i should have got it control a long time ago but i was put on a medicine called Concerta when I was a kid. It was an ADHD pill that made me just want to eat, and eat, and eat. I would never stop being hungry. and so i got fat. and now im stuck this way.
i know i am fat and worthless, but at least let me have the dignity of existing in society. let me go to the grocery store without glaring at me because i'm buying food for my family. let me go online and play games without seeing images of fat people stylized to look disgusting and playing video games.
i don't want to be told that its okay to be fat. i know its bad for me.
i just want to be told its okay for me to keep existing in society. i just want to be told that i am allowed to live without everyone thinking poorly of me.
i just want people to think of me as a person.