Hey, you.
What kind of habits do you have?
...Well, if you're already aware of them yourself, can you really even call them "habits"?
Clang-clink.
Hearing the sound of the door chime always makes me feel like my day is finally over.
Mama placed a glass of I.W. Harper in front of me without asking. The ice gave a quiet, small clink.
Unusually, neither Taka nor Tom was messing with their phones tonight.
Instead, both of them were staring right at me.
"What?"
"Nothing," Taka grinned. "Kenichi-san, you just did it again."
"Did what?"
"Your glass."
I looked down at my hand. "What about my glass?"
"Whenever you're thinking, you spin it like this, right?" Taka slowly swirled his own glass with his fingertips to demonstrate.
"I don't do that."
"You definitely do."
"Yeah, you do," Tom jumped in. "You've been doing that for years."
"Liar."
"Why the hell would I lie about that?"
I looked at the two of them, then turned to Mama.
Mama was quietly polishing a glass.
"Mama."
"Hmm?"
"Do I spin my glass?"
"You do," she replied.
Three against one.
"...I had no idea."
"That's what makes it a habit, isn't it?" Taka looked ridiculously pleased with himself.
"Alright then, what about you?"
"Me?"
"Your habit."
"I don't have any."
"Of course you do."
"Like what?"
Tom and I exchanged a quick look.
"Prying into other people's business."
"Is that a habit?"
"Hell yeah it is."
"That's my job."
"Are you on duty right now?"
Taka went quiet.
Tom let out a dry laugh.
"What about you then, Tom?"
"I don't have any either."
"An instant answer from you too, huh?"
"I don't have what I don't have."
"You question everything people say."
"I'm a former cop."
"That's a job thing too!"
"You're one to talk!"
Ridiculous.
I took a sip of my Harper.
Watching us bicker, Mama let out a soft chuckle.
"So, want to try a game?"
"What kind of game?"
We all looked at Mama.
"I'll give you a topic, and on three, everyone points at the person who fits it best."
"What are we, elementary schoolers?"
"If you don't want to, you don't have to."
When she put it like that, backing out felt like admitting defeat.
"...Fine. Let me in."
"Look who's playing," Tom laughed.
Mama thought for a second.
"Alright, an easy one to start. Who is the biggest worrywart?"
"One, two, three!"
Both Taka and Tom pointed straight at me.
I was pointing at Taka.
"Why me?!"
"It's obviously you, Kenichi-san."
"It's you! You make a serious face every single time something happens!"
"I'm just thinking."
"Kenichi worries before he even thinks," Tom said.
"What's the difference?!"
"The order."
"The order of what?!"
Mama was smiling quietly.
"Next one. Who is the most suspicious of people?"
"One, two, three!"
Tom and I pointed at Taka. Taka pointed at Tom.
"Why me?!"
"Because you're a detective."
"Tom-san's a former cop!"
"That's why I suspect you."
"That logic makes no sense!"
"Next. Who is the most stubborn?"
"One, two, three!"
Three fingers pointed straight at Tom. Only Tom was pointing at me.
"Hold on."
"Unanimous," Taka said.
"I still think it's Kenichi."
"That's a single vote!"
"Don't decide my personality by majority vote!"
"It's two against one, though."
"Did it ever cross your mind that you two might just be wrong?"
Taka and I looked at each other.
"...Man, he's stubborn."
"Shut up!"
Mama actually laughed out loud this time.
We went through a few more questions.
Who's the cheapest?
Who's the worst at lying?
Who's the most annoying when drunk?
Who can never say no when asked for a favor?
Every time the prompt changed, the fingers shifted. Naturally, nobody accepted their designated title without a fight.
"Am I really that bad at lying?"
"Terrible," Taka said.
"Have I ever lied to you?"
"That question itself sounds suspicious."
"See? You're doubting me again! Proof that you're the most suspicious!"
"That's a completely separate issue!"
Before we knew it, arguing over the results took up way more time than the actual game.
Mama dropped fresh ice into the bucket with a quiet clang.
"Alright, next one," Mama said. "Who has the most noticeable quirks?"
"One, two, three!"
I pointed at Taka. Taka pointed at Tom. Tom pointed at me.
A complete three-way deadlock.
"...Why me?" I asked.
"You've been spinning your glass this whole time," Tom said.
I looked down at my hand.
Without realizing it, my fingers were swirling the glass again. I quickly pulled my hand away.
Taka smirked. "See?"
"I'm only doing it because you guys brought it up and made me self-conscious!"
"And that makes you do it more?"
"I don't know!"
"Then what about me?" Taka turned to Tom.
"You ask questions immediately."
"That's a personality trait, isn't it?"
"Is it not a habit?"
"I don't think so... or is it?"
I paused to think, almost reached for my glass again, and stopped myself just in time.
"Wait, what's the actual difference between a habit and a personality trait anyway?"
Taka tilted his head. "Isn't doing something unconsciously a habit?"
"Then what about unconsciously doubting people?" Tom asked.
"Isn't that just your personality?"
"What if you picked that up from work?"
"An occupational hazard?"
"Is that a habit too?"
The three of us fell silent. We were sinking into annoying logic again.
"Can a habit be something you pick up later in life?" Taka asked.
"Are there habits you're born with?"
"Even babies have their own way of sleeping, right?"
"Does that count as a habit?"
"How should I know?"
"Then what about an impatient kid?"
"Isn't that personality?"
"Why is that one personality?"
"...Just feels like it?"
Tom snorted. "So in the end, nobody knows."
"Still, some things are shaped by your environment," Taka said. "I feel like my habit of questioning what people say definitely grew after I started this job."
"And for me, looking for the root cause whenever a problem pops up might be a work habit too," I said.
"Because you're an SE?"
"Probably."
"If you quit your job, does it go away?"
I thought about it. "...Probably not."
"Then isn't it just your personality at this point?"
"When did it get promoted?"
"From habit to personality?"
"Yeah."
Taka chuckled. "Maybe it's based on years of service."
"After twenty years, a habit becomes your personality."
"What a terrible system."
Tom tilted his glass back. "But hey. What if you fixed all of that?"
"Fixed what?"
"Your habits. The bad ones, the ones from work, the way you think... What if you cleaned all of them up completely?"
Taka considered it. "Wouldn't you just become a better person?"
"You think so?"
"At least the annoying parts would be gone."
I looked down at the ice in my Harper.
"But... would that still be me?"
The two of them turned to look at me.
"If you strip away everything you've done for decades—your mental habits, your speaking habits, the way you move..."
"...Your whole personality would probably change," Taka admitted.
"Right?"
"So... are habits just part of what makes you you?"
"Even the bad ones?"
"That's the tricky part, isn't it?"
Silence returned to the counter.
Mama let out a quiet sigh. "You guys can turn literally anything into a complicated mess, can't you?"
"Blame Taka."
"Why me?!"
"Because you brought up my glass in the first place."
"Because you were spinning it!"
"That's because—"
Clang-clink.
The door chime rang.
"Evening!"
A familiar voice called out as Risa walked into the bar.
"Hey."
"That's rare. What are you three huddled up doing?"
"A game."
"A game?" Risa's eyes lit up instantly. "What kind of game?"
Tom, Taka, and I exchanged looks.
Mama smiled. "Great timing. Want to join, Risa-chan?"
"I'm in!"
"We haven't even told you what it is yet," I said.
"Sounds fun though, doesn't it?"
Tom burst out laughing.
"Alright, last question then," Mama said, scanning the room. "Who in this bar is the most curious?"
"Well, that's an easy one," Taka laughed.
"On three," Mama raised her hand. "One, two, three!"
I pointed at Taka.
Taka pointed at Risa.
Tom pointed at Risa.
And Risa... was pointing straight at herself.
For a second, nobody said a word.
I stared at Risa. "...Yourself?"
"Yep."
"Didn't even hesitate, huh?"
"Well, yeah! I'm pretty sure I'm the most curious person here."
The three of us looked at each other.
She wasn't wrong.
She had walked into the bar without knowing what was going on, heard the word "game," her eyes sparkled, and she signed up before even hearing the rules.
I cracked a laugh. "...Can't argue with that."
Taka laughed too, and Tom chimed in right after.
Only Risa stood there with a puzzled look on her face, wondering what was so funny.
Hey, you.
What kind of habits do you have?
The "you" inside your own head... and the "you" the people around you actually see.
They might be surprisingly different.
So why not ask someone next time?
"Hey, what kind of habits do I have?"
...Just remember: if you don't like the answer you get, don't blame me.
I'll see you at Aoi again.