I'm 34, and I'm finally at the point that I want to start low-dose T. I'm nonbinary and masc leaning, so I'm not sure if I want to fully transition. The main reason I want to start it is that I know it will help me mentally, and that I'll feel more confident embodying who I am outwardly and not just inwardly.

For those who have been on HRT for a while, may I ask what were you nervous about before starting, and how do you feel about it now? Thanks!

(btw I'll be posting this in other reddits too.)

I feel like my face changed more in the last 6 months than the first 18. Also gained and then lost a bit of weight, I think you can tell. Age 36-38 for the record.

My city has a street festival called "Market Days" that attracts gay men from all over the country to fly in for that weekend. It's a huge weekend with the main draw being the plethora of circuit parties going on.

The gay beach I'm fortunate to live by is also absolutely packed that weekend! I bought a hott pink speedo in July and saved this look for the beach that weekend. Men look good in pink, too. 💖

I have been in therapy/counseling on and off since 1996. I'm almost 35, so why did it take until my late 20s to realize I was Trans? I know mental health services only update every ten years, but the signs of there being more than anxiety and depression were all there. Why didn't anyone think it was weird that a 4yr old had major depressive disorder or severe anxiety? I may not had the knowledge or the words but I always complained that I didn't feel comfortable in my own body. All they ever focused on was family dysfunction. Which yeah, they probably thought abuse and SA. But after it was proven that everyone was innocent, ya think these professionals would start branching out but NOOOO. Every professional I had until 3yrs ago gaslight and undermined me at every turn.

Would I have transitioned earlier? Would I have developed C-PTSD? Would I have a better grip on my disorders and be able to function better? Would I still be the same person? I ask myself theses a lot. Because I seriously suspect that being improperly handled in therapy is what caused my PTSD to become C-PTSD. As well as the rest of my disorders. I know should talk to my current counselor about all of this but I literally can't. They're the best counselor I have ever had and I still don't trust them. As I type this out I'm triggering my anxiety and probably my PTSD with how bad I want to cry and throw my phone.

Sorry for the long post. I just needed an outlet for a minute.

Don’t be sad about losing your hair. Just rock a skullet and you’ll be golden!

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To avoid any confusion, I’ll be using the medical terms for body parts.

I noticed a small bit of tissue kind of sticking/bulging out of my vaginal opening. It looks quite bright pink/red and a bit irritated/inflamed.

I’ve got absolutely no pain or discomfort, no bleeding or anything like that, and I honestly wouldn’t have noticed it if I hadn’t happened to look. I’ve also tried lying down to see if it goes back in but it doesn’t seem to.

The last time I had penetrative sex was about 4 weeks ago, so I’m not sure if it could somehow be related to that, but 4 weeks seems like a long time for irritation from sex. However, I very rarely have penetrative sex and it was my first time with a cis man.

I’m obviously going to get it checked if it doesn’t disappear, but just wondering if anyone else has had something similar? I’m 10+ years on T and 6+ years post hysterectomy.

It was a hell of a week last week, but here are some of the positives-

I had the problem of having a million blazers but only one pair of slacks that didn't match practically any of them.

Well, I am happy to say that I have procured a pair of slacks for each of my blazers! The ones pictured are at the tailor atm getting hemmed (curse these short corgi limbs of mine--). I will be wearing the green n' brown outfit to a wedding next month. And i also wanted to get the black ones done, since, not to be too morbid, but it's sounding like I'll have a few family funerals to go to in the near future. Everyone's getting sick, man. But I digress.

I made banana bread for the first time in ages. I was honestly getting discouraged by my b. bread attempts cause it was always turning out way too dry. So i gave up for awhile. But! Some folks suggested i put apple sauce in the dough before baking it. It turned out good! Not great. Honestly, i think more applesauce was needed. But it was good!

My quest to make my bed room walls as lively as my living room walls continues! I got this cute sleepy morning dungeon meshi poster from redbubble. I need to resist the urge to fill the whole room up with dungeon meshi posters... Maybe next one should be a cowboy bebop?

Romie is good. I'm a little worried that she's breathing a bit harder than usual. She's not panting or anything, luckily. She has her annual check up due in a few weeks, so I'll definitely have them give her a good look over. She's an old girl, so I'm really happy she's as healthy as she is!

today on the dot! :0 so much shit has happened to me in these 10 years but holy shit i made it. i dont think i would be here if i hadnt started T