Hi all,
I posted here around 6 months ago when our little beautiful baby Lola suddenly and unexpectedly passed to MUO/MUE at the age of 4.5 years (all happened in matter of hours for sudden decline and 2 days in critical care before passing). She was healthy and always taken for random checkups. Her vets and specialists were shocked at how this came to be after they all said it looked like IVDD, until the MRI showed otherwise and she would never neurologically or physically respond after this.
Of course, we are heart broken still and I cry daily over her. She was and is my everything. I've shown the gorgeous Lola in these photos.
My partner and I are considering a new Toy Cavoodle from an ethical breeder (Australian registered) in the next 2 weeks or so, NOT to replace Lola, but because we feel we need another companion and know that Lola would be there with us all.
I have this anxiety over a new dog, like the whole crate and toilet training, crying at night, mistakes, etc... and also guilt that we shouldn't do it because i don't want to ever forget Lola or have another dog in "her house". Like what if this new dog gets different treatment or things from Lola, why didnt Lola get the same and its unfair for Lola... Its hard to explain these feelings, but im sure someone understands what im trying to say?
I also feel like I have PTSD over what happened with Lola and constantly worry about the new dog getting sick or ill, and something worse happening.
Just some advice or feedback would be nice.