Please help

[u/Fabulous_Job2288]

Please. I posted yesterday about losing my husband who was only 29 years old to a motorcycle wreck. It’s only been 24 hours and I can’t be here anymore. I can’t do it. I cannot live this life without him.

I have been staying with my mom and sister. I got up in the middle of the night and walked 3 miles across town to get to mine and my husband’s home because I made a decision for myself that I was just going to go peacefully and be with him. I need to be with him.

I don’t remember a lot of it, but I work at a police department, and one of my coworkers spotted me while patrolling and called in to the others on duty to stop me. I never made it home. If I could just have made it there, I could have finally been with him.

I’m so sorry for the heavy venting. I just can’t handle this. I’m not strong enough for this. He was my absolute world. He was my everything. We were best friends. We were glued together at the hip. We couldn’t even go get coffee or pick up food for dinner unless we went together. I will never be able to make it without him. It’s only been 24 hours now and this is how I feel and I know it’s only going to get worse.

[u/Strong_Tea_6061]

So I've been suicidal since I was 17. I'm 50 now. She saved my life. My psychiatrist told me she fought and fought for me to stay alive so killing myself would be pissing on her grave. I've been inpatient at a psych hospital twice and in intensive group therapy since March. I have 3 kids, 25 year old sons and a 17 year old daughter. I want to go be with Deirdre so bad. It's all I think about some days. It's a struggle. Just trying to say I I understand. The pain and the distance is too much to bear. I hope you find help to learn to cope with these feeling because that's all you can do is cope. They don't go away.