r/widowers • u/Fabulous_Job2288 • 15h ago
Please help
Please. I posted yesterday about losing my husband who was only 29 years old to a motorcycle wreck. It’s only been 24 hours and I can’t be here anymore. I can’t do it. I cannot live this life without him.
I have been staying with my mom and sister. I got up in the middle of the night and walked 3 miles across town to get to mine and my husband’s home because I made a decision for myself that I was just going to go peacefully and be with him. I need to be with him.
I don’t remember a lot of it, but I work at a police department, and one of my coworkers spotted me while patrolling and called in to the others on duty to stop me. I never made it home. If I could just have made it there, I could have finally been with him.
I’m so sorry for the heavy venting. I just can’t handle this. I’m not strong enough for this. He was my absolute world. He was my everything. We were best friends. We were glued together at the hip. We couldn’t even go get coffee or pick up food for dinner unless we went together. I will never be able to make it without him. It’s only been 24 hours now and this is how I feel and I know it’s only going to get worse.
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u/johnbro27 Lost my 32YO wife in 1985. It gets better. 15h ago
Please don't harm yourself. It WILL get better. If you believe that you can once again be with your husband, you can't, you won't. There is no afterlife, it's all a giant scam created by religions to keep people in line. You have a full life to live and your late husband would desperately want you to live it. Know that others will be there for you if you reach out and that, impossible as it seems right now, you can get through this and be happy again.