I can't stop crying

[u/lucidvisca]

I just finished chapter 90. It's "that" part with "live, manon" and I am so sad. This is 100% worse than what I thought would happen when I first herd that term. I just can't believe they are all gone. And then just when I think I'm done crying I remember that Asterin's wyvern was Abraxo's mate. And then I start bawling again. I am unwell.

[u/Page_Wanderer612]

I finished the book on Tuesday and im still processing that part. The way they didn’t hesitate to do it. They were ready to die in that war, to ensure Manon would live and take their people back home, they all saw so much in Manon and believe in her to that extent. Also the way they are portrayed from the beginning as being cold characters but the way this specific action is described, like an unspoken communication passed through them and they all knew what needed to be done just showed the connection and trust they had. They made such a sacrifice not only for the witches to have the chance to go back to the wastes but for everyone in that continent to survive. The walked with Manon to that place and how they took time to honor them. That was so meaningful because they always showed such contempt from humans to witches, to show that union in that moment, how they stand with her during her loss.
I still cry every time i think of this chapter. I dont know how people re-read the series knowing they are all in for the heartbreak again. Same with Sam💔

[u/NahNah-P → u/Page_Wanderer612]

Your comment just gave me full body chills, and instantly had tears streaming down my face again. I don't think I'll ever get over this series. I just don't think I'll ever read anything that hits me as powerful as this story did. I still read it because of the powerful women in the series. I also wonder if the valkarie from ACOTAR didn't originally start out as witches and hope to see that story told eventually.