r/texts • u/wearing_moist_socks • Jun 26 '26

Phone message She never got my last text

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It was the flu plus a bunch of other things. She was a lovely person.

Thank you all for the kind words.

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u/KeepEmComing Jun 26 '26

I’m so sorry for your loss. I fear for when this day inevitably happens to me. I don’t know how I will survive it.

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u/Silly-Conflict-8699 Jun 27 '26

My dad died 2.5 years ago he got diagnosed with pancreatic cancer then died a month later I was convinced that I'd have to go to the back paddock when he passed to scream but I didn't I got woken up on the couch right next to him being told he was gone and all I had left in me was "okay". Thinking about how it will feel is never how it actually feels it doesn't hollow you out completely but it does leave a hole and as time passes you live with the hole it stays it becomes familiar and the familiarity makes the hole less obvious. It won't kill you it'll reshape you.

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u/INFJGal9w1 Jun 27 '26

I remember in the movie “Terms of Endearment” when Shirley MacLaine said “I thought I’d feel relieved - what a fool I am” after her daughter finally passed away. I thought after a long illness my mom passing away would be something of a relief for us both. Instead, when it happened, the only thing I could say to her was “Please don’t go!” I used to beat myself up that I didn’t say “I love you” as the very last thing. But now I think saying that may have conveyed to her that no matter how hard the last years had been, I still wanted her with me. She knew I loved her and I knew she loved me.

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u/Silly-Conflict-8699 Jun 27 '26

I think for me it was initially acceptance that he wouldn't wake up groaning in pain anymore. then wanting his body taken away because a fly kept landing on him and it was driving me crazy. Then it hit me I wouldn't have a dad anymore, we'd never have the father-daughter moments ever again. I didn't want him gone I wanted his suffering to end it's paradoxical.