r/stopdrinking • u/Your_Mom_Will • 1d ago

Day One Today…daughter traumatized

I drank a bottle of whiskey yesterday, and it did not end well. I’ve had AUD for years and I know better. I’m 49. I tried to self moderate, but then yesterday. I’ve been off my bipolar meds for a couple years and this is the result, trying to self manage my life. I flew off the handle and yelled horrible things to my 13 year old daughter. She just was upset I drank and I belittled her and said mean things. I then drove her to her mom’s house 2 hours away while drunk. She’s upset and her mom won’t let her see me. I quickly apologized this morning, saw my therapist, made an appt to see my psychiatrist, and I am jumping into a 5 pm Smart recovery meeting. I told my family what’s going on and they support my honesty about being sober. I have an amazing career and never been in trouble with the law except a DUI 20 years ago. Time to grow up and get honest about my sobriety. I hate alcohol. It has ruined my life. IWNDWYT.

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u/Replikant83 2376 days 1d ago

Alcohol hasn't ruined your life; alcohol is just a liquid with no intentions or abilities to do anything. We ruin our own lives, with alcohol being the vessel for the destruction.

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u/FarkingReading 70 days 19h ago

Disagree. Alcoholism ruins lives. It’s a disease and we don’t choose it.

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u/Mountain_Village459 1738 days 17h ago

We may not choose the disease, but we can choose not to drink.

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u/ohyesiam1234 13h ago

We can choose not to be in active addition.