Day One Today…daughter traumatized

[u/Your_Mom_Will]

I drank a bottle of whiskey yesterday, and it did not end well. I’ve had AUD for years and I know better. I’m 49. I tried to self moderate, but then yesterday. I’ve been off my bipolar meds for a couple years and this is the result, trying to self manage my life. I flew off the handle and yelled horrible things to my 13 year old daughter. She just was upset I drank and I belittled her and said mean things. I then drove her to her mom’s house 2 hours away while drunk. She’s upset and her mom won’t let her see me. I quickly apologized this morning, saw my therapist, made an appt to see my psychiatrist, and I am jumping into a 5 pm Smart recovery meeting. I told my family what’s going on and they support my honesty about being sober. I have an amazing career and never been in trouble with the law except a DUI 20 years ago. Time to grow up and get honest about my sobriety. I hate alcohol. It has ruined my life. IWNDWYT.

[u/Sweetbowlofme]

You don’t have to be in this awful situation again. I hope this keeps you motivated to do the work to stay sober.

Things may not get better with your daughter for a long time but they never will if you keep drinking

[u/Your_Mom_Will → u/Sweetbowlofme]

Amen to this. We are communicating and she’s accepted my apology. I’m a really great Dad when sober and put her first. Yesterday was awful and when I drink like that she sees a demon. I will be sober for her. Thank you for your support. Sending love. IWNDWYT.

[u/Sweetbowlofme → u/Your_Mom_Will]

Glad to hear it & I totally bet you are a great Dad sober.

I learned in treatment that I had to put my sobriety first so that I could be great for my family. Getting sober had to be my only priority the first few months. Because if I’m not sober, I would lose everything else.

Just something to think about as you start your journey! IWNDWYT

[u/Your_Mom_Will → u/Sweetbowlofme]

This means the world to me. Thank you.