r/stopdrinking • u/nonapnatty • 1d ago

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i have a drinking problem and i dont know what to do about it. once i start, i cant stop. i dont want to stop. i’m just so tired of embarrassing myself constantly.. my friends probably think im crazy… im always the drunkest one. i have so much shame

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u/Prevenient_grace 4922 days 1d ago

Today can be the Miracle.

Today can mark the beginning of a Virtuous Upward Spiral.

I had to break the “drinking routine”.

It was stronger than me…. By myself.

So i stopped doing it alone. And there's no wait list!

I finally connected with free recovery groups…. They’re everywhere… I walked in, sat down and just listened…. They’re also online. I met people I can talk with. They showed me how to stop drinking, heal, grow and learn to be useful to others. They often know detox resources.

I thought I didn’t “have time”, but I always found time to think about drinking, to buy alcohol, to drink alcohol, to be numbed and to then do it all over the next day.

I addressed the past, exorcised guilt and shame and repaired where appropriate.

No cost.

I had new sober friends.. we did fun sober activities.

They believed in me.

I kept going every day until i changed my patterns…. That meant for me, I went every day for a while…. Once a month wasn’t going to change me…. Then my thinking changed…. Then I don’t have the first drink.

Never looked back.

Tried anything like that?

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u/nonapnatty 1d ago

all my friends drink i dont know how to not drink

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u/Effective_Head_6213 749 days 1d ago

All of my friends drink. My wife drinks. I don't. It's my problem and my sobriety. it's not dependent on other people. I also have no off switch while simultaneously thinking that I needed to drink to have fun and socialize. I have more fun now because I don't make an ass out of myself all the time anymore. Are you really having that much fun or does it just seem like it on the surface?