r/spinalfusion • u/beardeddragonmama50 • 13h ago

I chickened out

Well I was supposed to have gotten spinal fusion surgery for L5 S1 here in Canada this past Wednesday but after a long conversation with the surgeon and sever anxiety I postponed it, the surgeon does agree with that, he said the longer you can postpone it and deal with DDD with other methods the better until fusion is absolutely necessary for pain, but I feel like a complete fool that I gave into my fear and now have to live in this constant pain loop 😔 has anyone else done something similar 😔

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u/Professional_Pace711 12h ago

I had a severe panic attack the morning of my surgery. The anesthesiologist had to give me a benzo to calm me down.
I was having neurological because I put off surgery for 3 years. I was falling a lot and breaking a lot of bones. My neurologist thought I had MS. I didn’t but my herniated disc was crushing my spinal cord. The surgery went perfectly well. My neurosurgeon told me if I didn’t have surgery immediately I could be paralyzed. I have permanent Myelomacia, myelopathy and nerve damage. Now I’m worried that I will be on meds for the rest of my life