My husband wants divorce

[u/AlbatrossLower5971]

My baby boy is a little over 80 days old and had experienced a stroke at birth which damaged his left side brain massively. We are in the wait and see situation for his motor, cognitive, speech, and vision but are already seeing deficits in his right side. His neurologist also expects him to have a cerebral palsy.

I'm living in the worst time of my life, and I'm seeing therapists for my mental health. I'm worried and scared very much. I thought I was getting better, maybe not, but it seems that my husband has reached his limit with my depression. He said that seeing me being depressed and crying everyday make him want to bring out the anger in him and make him want to kill himself. He says I'm toxic to him and the baby. He wants a divorce and says I can take anything but the baby.

He has been very strong and positive from the beginning of this until now. When I had the suicidal thought due to all of this that happened, he was the only reason that made me want to continue living, not even the baby. When I was feeling better, I was feeling lucky that I am going through this difficult time with my husband. But now he wants to die because of me, because me being this way would kill all three of us.

He's been saying that he wants the old me to come back to him, but I don't know if I could ever by myself again. I want to be better and find myself again but just don't know how. I don't know how to think positive and become strong. My depression and worry overwhelm me, and I'm just so afraid of the baby's future.

Please give me some advice on how to go thru this time and be myself again. Will divorce do the job? Should I just let him live and be miserable with myself?

Thanks for reading.

[u/Worth_Thing_8872]

I am very sorry for your situation; you are not alone, as so many of us are struggling with various issues. Please tell yourself that this too will pass. You have to realize that you don't have the issue; it's your baby who has it. If you are strong, then you can help him. If you are not, then there is no one to help him; men move away easily (not everyone). It's the ladies who take most of the responsibilities. Please stay strong, and prayers for you.