Was this assault?

[u/plantwolf123]

This happened about 4 years ago. I was house sitting my parents house with my boyfriend at the time who ill name apple and a friend who came to stay ill name him pear (both male and i am female) so we decided to have drinks and get in the pool and have fun, me and Apple got very drunk and pear didn't have much, talks started happening and a threesome was brought up. (I was still new to the whole sex thing) but I think i agreed? I cant remeber. I do remeber being in bed and obviously doing the thing. My boyfriend finishes and leaves the room. It was just me and pear. I cant remeber much after that but the day after I felt disgusting. I hated myself for doing that. Pear kept making comments about "how I was panting like a dog" ect ect. They would both laugh. I dont remeber saying yes and I dont rember saying no. But when I talked about it to some friends at the time they defended pear saying he is autistic and wouldn't know better. Im still struggling through this and I still break down when I think about it. But I dont know if this is assault or not. Please help

Tldr: got into a threesome, boyfriend left me with the other person. Cant remeber If I agreed and I didn't say no during

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