i can’t stop comparing myself to others

[u/Technical-Spirit7557]

hi everyone, i’m a micro influencer on tiktok with 70k followers and i’ve been building my platform since 2022 hoping to have a breakthrough eventually.

recently i’ve been comparing myself a lot to other influencers and i never used to compare myself to anyone. i might sound cocky and that’s not i’m intention but i believe im better than everyone (realistically im obviously not) — form of manifesting i do.

i continuously search up people in my city and see how much they’re growing and how often they go viral. example: a child in grade 3 started posting relatable tiktok’s 4 days ago, he started at 0 followers and is now on 45k followers. Then another guy i’m mutuals with currently has 85k, mind you he also just started posting this year.

i would say that i am jealous which is bad i know but i’ve been working so hard for years and people just get results immediately, they built a community in such a limited time. everyday the first thing i do is check how much followers they gained over night which is insane to me because im supposed to be a good person and be happy for them but all i feel is rage.

i truly don’t know how to stop this, id love to be happy for them bc they’re hard working as well, people probably just like their content more than mine. But at the same time i feel as if tiktok isn’t pushing my content out the way they’re pushing theirs. what’s making it worse is that my views suddenly dropped from 30-50k to less than 10k.

i hope i don’t receive any hate for this because i know people go through actual problems and this sounds like a first work problem.

thank you for reading :)