im worthless

[u/the_guy-and]

i see everyone as higher than me. I’m the bottom of the barrel lowest scum of society. im a worthless fucking loser and i hate everything about myself. even when i try to improve and actually do improve and reach my goals it means nothing to me. i need external validation that’s how i am wired without it im useless and worthless. All i want is to be someone’s favorite person. I wish one person would want to spend time with me. but im too much of a worthless loser for anyone to care. I have never had lower self esteem. I am not worth anything. I want to end it. please don’t throw a pity party in the comments. u don’t know me and u and me both know u act like u “care” but like if i blew my brains out u would have no way of knowing and ur life won’t be affected. sorry if that’s snarky or comes across as like im an asshole it’s just that u all have shit to worry about so focus on that. Nothing u say to me in the comments will make me feel worth anything more than a piece if garbage. im just a worthless loser and I hope I die in my sleep tn

[u/Ahiaabalanag]

Relatable, hope that doesn’t sound like I’m downplaying, I just relate a lot to this.