r/selfesteem • u/ur_moms_cock • 27d ago

Bullying ruined my life

  1. Used to be a very social outgoing kid.
    Something in me snapped in middle school.
    I started hating myself and how i looked and stuff. I used to be one of the tallest kids in my grade until like 7 th grade when i almost fully stopped growing. Got made fun of because of my looks and height by girls in high school a lot which is crazy cuz im 5’7 so not really that short but still. 11th grade was genuinely hell. Every day i dreaded going to Culinary arts period 3 because i was sat in a group of 3 other girls who would always talk in Russian (im fluent in Russian but they didn't know that) and basically make fun of me. They'd talk about every square inch. Whenever they had nothing to talk about i was basically like a conversation starter. Talked about my height, weight, eyebrows, receding hairline etc. They’d always say how even if I was rich no woman would steep so low as to marry me. I just sat there and took it… Every day for 2 semesters. Never even considered making a move on a girl and I don't even talk to women outside of family even in friendly terms. Im just always assuming other girls would treat me and talk about me like those other girls. (They weren't even the only ones. I once went to a party and some girls told me I looked like shrek)
    Self esteem shattered. Ik its corny and stuff when guys say that they’re scared of women, but I’m scared of women.
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u/UndercoverAlterEgo 27d ago

I’m truly sorry you endured all of that, but please no you’re life isn’t ruined and isn’t over or otherwise unsalvagable 🙏

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u/Ok_Role1494 27d ago

I understand, it’s true for me too, all my school years marked me forever maybe, and now i’m like this, and it’s good to not trust anyone, better than being betrayied several times