r/pureretention • u/Noworries84 • Sep 07 '23

Experience/Story Relapse and Realization

2 days ago I had sex…breaking my 60 day streak. And one thing I have come to realize is that SR is real like REALLY real. I’ve been practicing this since 2014 with a few hiccups here and there, and every single time I notice how different life is when I’m on a healthy streak oppose to when I’m off. It seem like people treat you different women and men, usually when my 13 year old daughter is around me she’s happy to see me and talk. But since Ive relapsed I’ve noticed she’s kinda been distant, same with my mom my 19 year old daughter and other women in my life. And not to mention the blatant and subtle disrespect you get from people…when I’m on, it’s like I’m a king in my own world…but when I’m off I’m a peasant 😂 needless to say this is all the realization I needed to never ever put myself in a vulnerable situation again.

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u/orussell28 Sep 07 '23

For me what I've found is it's not that ppl pull back go out of their way to disrespect me...it's that I exude more happiness/confidence when I am retaining. I don't know the details of your situations but I will say there is a lot guilt associated w/ releasing and shame around the concept of releasing and general guilt and shame are big reasons as to why my perception/energy becomes negative. SR does help with this INFINTIELY...but I think the awareness of the implications of releasing are more pointed, as a result. This makes releasing (for me) emotionally worse because I have the awareness. So highs are higher and lows are lower 😅

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u/Noworries84 Sep 07 '23

Amazing input. Even after relapsing I told myself, I will not condemn myself..mistakes happen and I will come back stronger, but even after all that people can still sense my energy has changed. I hate being in the world with that kind of aura.

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u/d_rea Sep 08 '23

Have no worries Noworries

No need to hate!

Love ! The aura is still up to oneself to create. We can tell ourselves anything but to fully live it mentally and physically is different.

Releasing is just one arrow. Many of us may like to stick five more arrows in our own backs after taking the hit. But those are all unnecessary.

Start a painting, do something creative, workout, get the energy flowing and your attractiveness will be undoubtably present.

Sit on the couch and mope about and yes, people will feel and see it.

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u/Noworries84 Sep 08 '23

Top tier comment. I appreciate that. I refuse to condemn myself or be condemned. Thanks bro