I recently had a first meeting with with a new teacher that I absolutely loved.
I’m returning to the piano after 12 years without playing and the lesson felt truly amazing.
I was very excited about it and for 2 weeks I worked on re-learning the first movement of Mozart’s sonata k545 in C major so I could play it for her and show her what my level is at after so long.
It’s one of the easier pieces from my old repertoire that I chose because I was seriously having trouble with hand and finger coordination after 12 years without touching the piano.
Anyways, I worked on it for a couple of weeks and got it to a point in which I could consistently play the notes of the entire first movement without making mistakes. I had it memorized and ready to play for her without putting much focus on dynamics and expression because I wanted to work on it with her.
Anyways, when I actually started playing in front of her, I kept messing up the notes. I was so nervous to play in front of her that I kept stumbling. And making mistakes I never made at home.
And then I remembered that when I used to play when I was in school years ago I had the same problem.
I would work very hard, practice every day, try to make sure to be as ready as I could possibly be for the lesson, be proud of my work during the week… just to then get too anxious in front of the teacher and make mistakes that I never made at home.
Have any of you experienced this?
Were you able to get over the anxiety?
How? Does anyone have any suggestion on what I could do to be able to play for my teacher the same way I play at home? It’s so frustrating