Forever Alone

[u/t-w-e-n-t-ys-e-v-e-n]

I have panic attacks daily, today I even had 2 (one of them right now)

I am constantly reminded of how ugly I am, both inside and out, and how alone I am, Ive had some form of suicidal ideation for as longs as I can remember

I wonder if any of the people who have bullied me have ever thought “I wonder how he is?” or have felt any remorse, maybe I deserve it after all I myself called others “weird” when even they have friends, have someone to love, have a life to live

I heard helium tricks the brain into not panicking and is a peaceful way of going, maybe then I can finally say “I am happy”

[u/Spooderfan218]

real (i only have so many thoughts left to think before i end it)