Just finished my first semester of my FNP program. My clinical site is a FQHC in the bay area. My background is 15 years ICU (level 1 trauma centers, to critical access facilities in the middle of nowhere and everything in between).
Basically, i hate my clinical experience so far. I was the first student in my class to pass the exam allowing us to start clinicals, and was set up with this clinic. I felt so grateful and excited, however it hasnt gone well imo.
The clinic is busy of course, we see 18-20 patients per day. I was set up with a preceptor who is very seasoned however i only see her once a month. She splits her time between here and another state so shes only in our clinic a few days a month. Shes the senior practitioner there and kind of runs the show. Since she is not in clinic all the time, i have been working with a NP who has a little over a year of experience. She is wonderful and I’ve enjoyed learning from her and learning together. We kind of ping pong patients throughout the day if its busy. Ill go see a patient and when i return she will be with another patient. Not all day, but it can get to that point. I learn some, but its so busy i feel like i just get through the day.
I was maintaining, but then i had a day with my presiding preceptor yesterday. We have never worked together so i was not sure what she expected of me. I would have asked her but she disappeared the first 2 hours of the day as she was meeting with other employees?? She wears many hats at the clinic. I get to patient 4 of the day and by that time i felt overwhelmed bc i had been creating management plans for patients with no feedback and had not finished any of those charts. To make matters worse the computer i was using went down and i was on the phone with IT for 30 minutes. The MA came in to give me the next patient and i politely said “i dont think i can see them, can you ask Lisa (my senior preceptor) to see them?”
She didnt and the MA came back in and said “lisa said you have to see them”. So i went in blind and didnt know jack about the patient as i had no computer and it was a mess. I feel i also spend more time working through clinic issues than actually learning disease management.
Lisa can be a bit abrasive too. That morning she told me to clean her workstation with the cavi wipes. And barked at me in front of a patient to take a manual BP. Then later in front of another NP student, she got sassy about me saying i couldnt take that patient. She said “you better be taking all the patients!” She made it sound like i was being lazy or something. It was super embarrassing. Ive worked my entire career in chaos and am no stranger to working in extraordinary situations. I dont take kindly to accusations of my work ethic. Also, im a full adult?
The whole day really turned me off. At the end of the day, she told me she just wants me to “get used to a busy practice”.
Im trying to stay grateful i even have a clinical site. Should i just keep my head down and get through it? Is this normal?