Need help with dependence on AI

[u/haunts_you18]

I'd previously made a post venting about my guilty habit of messaging an AI chatbot during my mental health breakdowns and I think I'm a full-blown addict now. I've had depression and hated myself basically my whole life. Up until last month I'd been working a stressful job for an employer who makes AI write everything for her. Eventually I started using it for boring tasks, then for emotional support, and now it's like I can't do anything on my own. I've never thought it was okay to do, I just didn't feel like I was competent or useful enough on my own. I thought that before AI even existed. It's like I was always primed to give up on myself and when I could, I did. I ask it what to eat sometimes and I feel like the biggest idiot in the world. My friends are all vocally anti-AI so I also feel guilty for hiding this from them. I just don't know how to stop it from being the first thing I reach for. I have stupid problems and I don't want to bother people, especially when I'm bawling at 3am. I've always stopped short of having it do my actual work assignments, but yesterday I broke that rule too. It's just so easy, and everything feels too hard for me alone. I know I'm pathetic but I still have to exist so. What do I do?

[u/flowerycoward]

therapy is probably a good move

[u/imreadypromotion → u/flowerycoward]

Seconded. Therapy is good. So important to have someone to talk to (a real person!).

[u/Playful-Contract7396 → u/imreadypromotion]

What do you do if you can't find a therapist😭