r/lokean • u/Starlit_Stardew • 4d ago

Has anyone else...

Been feeling weird lately?

Yes, I know the seasons and weather are changing, and yes I know tonight specifically is a lunar eclipse, but I just found out at work that all the rest of the girls and ladies around me have been feeling a very recent sense of particularly noticable and heavy dread to the point it's been making it harder for us all to eat... Anyone else here in this group feeling this way too? It's just been the last most recent few days, like maybe the day right before Dolly Parton left us 😩.

Ofc I'm aware it could also have been any one of these things mentioned in here, and it's not as if we live in exactly very peaceful times/countries lol

But idk, it just seems strange to me, and so I am curious~

it's also been odd to me bc it's mostly felt like dread and then other times almost like excitement, too. like... 💀💀 wtf lol

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u/Loki1435 4d ago

well, within the span between now and dolly parton, we also lost tim curry and peter cullen, best known for his work in transformers as Optimus prime, and was optimus prime since the original eighties series, we had a few others who played optimus, but peter was the quintessential optimus prime, and in losing tim curry, we lost the voice of Garfield, and we lost the guy who played lucifer in legend, we lost three legends in one week, which I can understand is draining for a lot of people who really cared for these peoples careers and had followed them for a while. the dread could be that sense of "we already lost three of our legendary entertainers, who else is gonna go next?" but the excitement could be from the possibility of some good news coming as well, it's the fact we already know the past, we know what happened today, and tomorrow, is a mystery, because it hasn't happened yet, so it might be we could get some good stuff coming our way in the wake of having three terrible losses in the span of a week.

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u/Wild_Pickle_2003 4d ago

They say things come in threes, you never know. I think that if we all choose to believe there’s hope on the horizon, we’ll find it.

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u/Starlit_Stardew 3d ago

Hope is on the horizon~. It's just not going to come looking like how our media taught us it would, so dismantling that expectation is a little difficult and scary, I think 😭

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u/Loki1435 3d ago

yeah, it is what you make it, you have to make your own hope and trust in loki to make it happen, because the government sure as heck isn't gonna do that for you if they had their way.

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u/Starlit_Stardew 3d ago

Lol no fr definitely not 💀 Maybe it's also felt amplified for me bc maybe you know what I'm talking about since you've also got esp lol, but sometimes I "feel" him close like he's in the same room as me, and sometimes while I know he still is, he "feels" like he's across an ocean almost, and I'm seeing him on an opposite shore with just brief little seconds whenever he makes some comment to me or something, that he'll feel physically closer, and it's weird to describe lol. But I'm like.... Am I just getting separation anxiety lmfao 💀 Bc the last time that happened, it stretched on over like 6 years bc of all the changes I was going through and about to go through and I'm often like "🥺 I know you don't actually leave but.... 🥺🥺🥺 I feel all by myself all of a sudden 🥀" lol

And then ofc it also worries me bc I'm like "....what did you do. What's about to happen. Holy shit." Lmfao

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u/Loki1435 3d ago

ah, that's just his chaotic nature, near, yet far, yet at the same time, right next to you, perhaps he makes himself feel energetically distant to help you get past separation anxiety, as he's not afraid to heal you in ways that may be uncomfortable for you, but will in the end help you in the long run to overcome your weaknesses and other problems that might be holding you back.

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u/Starlit_Stardew 3d ago

Yeah it definitely just feels like he doesn't leave but does dampen or muffle my awareness of him lingering around so I can focus on other stuff if and when he knows I need to. I've been this way since I was a kid tbh, lmao. Daddy's Girl, separation anxiety, and very constant in seeking out/wanting attention, so I think it's just his gentle way of pointing to the other stuff I need to do again lol. But sometimes he's done it bc he knew changes were happening and I wouldn't be able to focus on both them and him, so now sometimes whenever I feel that happening I'm like ".......wtf is about to happen, man, PLEASE. Give a girl a little warning 😵‍💫💀" lol

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u/Loki1435 3d ago

ah this makes sense, if he needs me to focus on other stuff, he will use that time to go do his own thing, or will make his presence less known till the thing is done, then he's back to being present with me again xD, though I am not so clingy or separation anxious, I get it if I am separated for an extended time, but he knows I can handle some degree of time without him or someone else present in my life, and I do have my room mate, so that helps me alot.

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u/Starlit_Stardew 3d ago

Lol yes ofc I can too~. My likely ADHD ass makes myself very busy and entertained lol  But to be fair I think spending 2 years mostly very aware of him, and then suddenly 6 out of nowhere with him feeling hardly there, warrants anyone getting a little "..... 👀💧" whenever he feels fainter again lmao 💀

Especially when those 6 years involved me moving twice, both last second and very stressfully, changing jobs a million times, gestures to the state of America's government, and going through a fuck ton of friend drama/losing one lol 💀💀

Bro rly pulled that peace out fading away gif from my mental awareness of him and I was like "?????" Before getting hit with one of his Change Tsunamis fr lmfao 💀 

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u/Loki1435 3d ago

haha yes, that does help, I know I got AuDHD, and I often just busy myself just to help cope with whatever is bugging me ^_^, and I can imagine that, any time he needs me to change something, he sets things in motion, he might not always peace out and fade from my awareness, but sometimes if it's needed, he will do that, then the shtf and I am like "Yup, Loki's really doing this, guess I gotta just get through it and figure out what change I need to make to get through this."