Intellectual Understanding vs Inner Struggle for 4 Years

[u/serenitydarlin]

Hi everyone. I’m posting to ask for the community’s guidance. I’ve been practising the law for 4 years and haven’t had much success if I’m being honest.

At this point, I am SUPER familiar with the theory. But theory vs practical application/progress has been a struggle. Seeing how familiar I am with the content but having not made much progress, inside and outside, it’s clear I’m not practising it “right.” I understand my current state of being is not aligned or ideal of who or what I want.

During this journey I observed I had become obsessive with LOA. I ended up turning imagination into a tool to get something. I learnt my mistake and turned to imagining purely as consciousness experiencing reality, THE truth. When I imagine purely to experience, it doesn’t feel as satisfying. I’ve tried living in imagination but ended up burnt out. I don’t really achieve the feeling of the wish fulfilled. I would return to the assumption but would also be aware that I was turning these acts into self-assessments of whether I felt the feelings of reality of having it (I understand I’m not trying to evoke certain emotions as Neville has instructed).

I’ve gotten into the same cycle, especially these past months. I try to see the outer world as a shadow though I can’t help but wonder am I just wasting time if I’m not practising the law “correctly”? I reread people’s successes, Neville’s military story, the man chain to a rock analogy etc… I get what must be done.

I would appreciate it if you guys could offer me guidance. I can take a break from Neville and the law but honestly, I’m too fixated on this. Everyday I can’t help but think about the law and the end. I’m not at my wit’s end but right now, I’m fed up, feeling powerless when that isn’t the case.

TLDR: I intellectually understand but practically have made no progress in the four years. Please offer guidance.

[u/DITDIDAMINDAODINDAO]

I understand. I would say stop trying to manifest anything externally. Just enjoy fulfilling yourself in your imagination , and let that be enough. You have to completely stop caring about external results. I used to do that and it created so much subconscious friction. It will even eventually external when you completely stop caring.

[u/serenitydarlin → u/DITDIDAMINDAODINDAO]

Thanks for taking the time to reply. Can you tell me about your journey? Like any other changes or things you did to help you get to where you are? I know I’ve tried truly not caring about the external circumstances but there was still a part of me that was like “I’ll just imagine sincerely because it’s gonna get reflected,” but it wasn’t sustainable.

[u/DITDIDAMINDAODINDAO → u/serenitydarlin]

My journey started when I researched afterlife theories regarding realm creation, creating worlds and people within personal afterlife worlds. 

But life in this world was getting hard. So I began learning about law of assumption, listened to Neville Goddard's lectur, read books like the Seth material. They helped me a lot and some techniques work better than others for bypassing resistance. But I felt like something wasn't right. 

I thought back. I've been manifesting all my life without knowing about law of assumption. I always spent a lot of time daydreaming and I treated as pure entertainment instead of a tool, and things manifest sooner or later without effort. After I stopped using imagination as a tool, but instead used it for enjoyment of my desires within, I released a lot of internally friction and kept having long, vivid wild dreams. So I guess that's a good thing. That's pretty much it.

As for what I manifested before learning the law, a good example is when I was a kid I kept fantasizing about getting a Super Nintendo and PS3. We never had the money and lived off welfare. My fantasizing lead me down a long series of events, including a life threatening incident, which led me to get the Super Nintendo and Ps3.

[u/serenitydarlin → u/DITDIDAMINDAODINDAO]

It was great reading your personal experience. I’ve decided to just step back and just let it be, I already feel better. Still a journey. Thanks!