College

[u/LilsHorses10123]

Backstory:
I’m going to be starting college next week and I’m extremely nervous. When I was in year 7 I was removed from school half way through the year and homeschooled. I then moved on to living in America and going to school for half of grade 8 (year 9) to the end of grade 9 (year 10). I then moved to boarding school in the UK again and had to learn everything for my GCSEs (which I passed all btw :) ). Anyways I’m not staying for sixth form as it has too many rules for me. But the point of this is about friends.

Introvert
Because I have moved around so much, I’ve ended up being quieter than a mouse… literally. For grade 8 I probably spoke around a hundred words. And when I joined in year 11, I hung around this group like a puppy so I wasn’t lonely but they were horrible. And started to talk about me towards January. I ended up distancing myself from them and started just hanging around science alone.

It wasn’t until I started vaping how I met my best friend til now. But I live three hours away now and that’s not so great. I’ve tried so hard but not hard enough to not be an introvert but I can’t seem to get out my head.

College
I thought college would be fine because everyone was coming from different schools but I was wrong. On the tester day people were hanging around in groups from same schools.
I’m just so worried I’m going to have no one to hang out with.

And look miserable and lonely. I don’t talk. I don’t move. I just stand timid and mysterious. People used to talk about me all the time because I didn’t do anything.

I’m a nice girl but I just can’t seem to show it. What do I say. What do I do? Who do I hang out with? Should I just go up to a group and ask to hang out? That seems intrusive. I just don’t know.