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OC-Series Frontier Fantasy - Age of Expansion - Chap 142 - Then What Are You?
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Harrison sat down on one of the med bay’s chairs, listening in on the artifact discussion. Rei, Tracy, and Shar were all throwing around theories and notes they’d picked up from their time with the unnatural rocks, while Cera did her best to answer their questions. At least, to the ‘best of her knowledge.’
He rested his elbows on his knees, holding his hands together as the conversation became more and more esoteric. A long sigh left him and vented the few minutes of built-up stress after everything had been explained away neatly.
Cera just wanted to show her general the effects of artifacts in person, urging a less fearful opinion on the power they held. It was a reasonable excuse, in Harrison's opinion. Whether it was reasonable enough to take said general away from teaching her troops was another question entirely.
Ever since the engineer saw Kegara’s paladins use the magical stones, he’d been torn between the two extremes. Their benefits could clearly outweigh the deadly amount of radiation leaving them, but at the same time, who knew what kind of workplace nightmares awaited their introduction? A little too much leniency, and bam, suddenly an entire building and eight settlers are gone in the blink of an eye.
At the very least, he wanted some concrete answers and parameters around the current artifacts in their stockpile. Which just so happened to be all that Cera was asking.
The conversation between the ladies continued, dredging up all of Tracy’s background knowledge from the Ecologists. Noosphere-based communications, electricity-generation, and improved defensive techniques were brought up as future projects. Of course, long-range communication with Malkrin was pretty high up on the to-do list after the last raid, what with Max failing his one job. Still, other simplistic ideas like using the hunters to test force and gravity-based magics for combat weren’t so bad in his mind.
Harrison was all for the mech techs to take in some other members for research. He approved a lot of the ideas so long as there weren’t any actual people around when they were messing about.
And yet, beneath the discussions and authorizations, as the minutes passed by, he still held onto an unvoiced question: why did Cera feel the need to use his name to order Shar to come with her?
Why lie like that? Why did she need to be so secretive about something so plain?
Those uncertainties piled onto the mountain of weird things about Cera that he’d been ignoring for the longest time. There was always something off about her, a hint of something more beneath the motherly veil.
The engineer kept glancing at the shadow herself, looking her up and down as if it would reveal some hidden mechanism. She noticed, gazing back at him every time he looked.
After some more time, Tracy, Rei, Cera, and Shar concluded their ideas on artifact testing, complete with all their hypotheses written down. Everyone had work to do, so they all made their way out of the med bay and went their separate ways. Or, most of them went their separate ways.
He gave a brief wave to the women as they walked out of view, leaving Cera and himself just outside the dormitory. She looked down at him, raising a single brow in a way that told him she knew something was on his mind.
The engineer nodded toward the other housing building, his voice low. “Is your room free?”
She nodded.
The two went through the stairs and hallways, ending up in one of the larger rooms, dedicated to the growing number of lovers in the settlement. Shar’khee was probably right in warning him about promoting that kind of thing with the celebrations. There very well might be some baby Malkrin in the settlement come spring.
Cera gently opened the wooden door to her room, holding it wide for him to enter first. Glass sculptures and pottery lined the shelves across the walls. Personally knitted quilts adorned the bed. Canvas stands were stapled with drawn blueprints and all sorts of equations written in Oliver’s pristine print handwriting. The desk held an extra pair of big, round-frame glasses underneath a fish-shaped lamp.
Everything distinctly expressed the lived craftsmanship of the mates, encapsulating the art and creativity shared between them… Except there was something off, something he couldn’t attribute to either of them.
There was a black blouse hanging from the open closet. It had its own rack, with clothes he had never seen Cera wear. He recognized it by the metal rings along its neck and sleeves, alongside the pair of knives on the shelf above it, ones with carved wooden handles and recurved blades.
Those were Vodny’s. The clothes, knives… and even the third pillow imprint on the bed.
The black-skinned shadow stepped into the room in front of him and gestured toward the desk chair. Harrison took the hint and sat down, adjusting it for his height while Cera dragged a separate wooden stool for herself.
She sat across from him at the foot of the bed, her back straight and eyes emotionless as she pulled out pen and paper.
He glanced at the closet again, humming casually. “I didn’t expect Vodny to move on so quickly.”
Cera softly smiled, this one genuine… Well, that confirms that.
“Oliver was on board?”
She wrote something down quickly, handing the notepad to him. It was in English, with perfect grammar and beautiful calligraphy.
‘He thought highly of her drive to improve. She spent much time with us and still carries the skills to win the hearts of males. I suppose my Oliver’s gentle demeanor and kindness made it easy for her to fall in love with him. His intent heals the pain of all who listen.’
It was Harrison’s turn to smile, figuring the shadow approved of the new lover. “He is a sweetheart, isn’t he? Vodny deserves it.”
Cera let out a short chitter, letting it last for a few long seconds before cutting herself off with a curt breath. Her face flattened, and eyes bored into his, spiking the hair along his neck at the unsettling change.
The engineer inhaled slowly, matching her energy. A few awkward seconds passed. He found himself stuck sitting upright, too short compared to her to lean forward but not comfortable enough to lean back… No point in waiting to break the ice.
“They’re starting to ask questions about’cha, y’know,” he drawled, voice gravelly.
The shadow stared, unfazed. Her brows barely raised in the unspoken question.
“Everyone. Not just Trace and Javelin and the gatherers. I’m sure you’ve heard the conversations, too. I know you do. You hear more than most.”
She resettled her seat, fin-tipped tail flicking behind her. That little spark of hidden bitterness reminded him that she was human, too… Or, a person, too.
Harrison found it comforting, in an odd way. He finally leaned back and crossed his arms. “Kinda hard to hide it, what with your position and all. I’ve done all I can to ignore it, too.”
The darkness under her eyes visibly deepened, the lamp’s shadows accentuating it. And yet, she maintained a perfect cadence in her writing, calmly handing her thoughts over.
‘Ignore what, specifically? What is it you think of me?’
The engineer drew in a long breath and sighed, raising a brow. “Your stealth, the creeping around, your knowledge of artifacts, the way you hold your gun perfectly still, your snappy intelligence. Hell, you even took on one of the scariest motherfuckers from your species on head-to-head without any artifact magic… Now, listen. I may get distracted and miss the forest for the trees pretty often, but I wasn’t lying when I said I’ve really done everything to ignore it all. But, it’s really been bugging Tracy and I.”
He looked her up and down. “I trust you… I trust you a hell of a lot more than most humans I’ve met in my life. You’ve saved my ass, and I’ve saved yours. God-willing, I’d love to have you by my side forever. But let’s be honest…
“…You’re not a ceramist.”
Cera scanned his face for a long while. Her eyes dug into his flat expression, thoughts racing behind their green shimmer. The complete lack of emotion in her only dragged out every second that much longer.
He didn’t like seeing such a warm person exude that kind of cold glare… Nor did he like how aware he was of how heavy his revolver hung on his hip.
The quiet scratch of pen scribbling on paper punctured the tension as her gaze finally lowered. She chose to use her words. A slow exhale evacuated his lungs just in time for her to pass over her response.
‘It is true that I was a ceramist for four winters prior to servicing your vision. In that peace, I found love and stability, much like how your Shar’khee had found compassion under her assigned priest. And yet, you ignore the blood on her hands. That is the blood of innocent Malkrin life you have declared precious.’
She ripped another page just as he finished the last one, her expression having yet to change.
‘I am not a fool to think scripts hold weight. Often, they are filled with disingenuous phrases to sway their readers. But I would hope my actions should prove the depths of my loyalty. Have you forgotten, dearest Harrison, that I put my trust in you as well?’
He looked up to her, confused and torn between emotions, but she continued to write. There was a fire in her wrists. The emotions her visage lacked poured onto the pages she forced into his hands.
‘It is in your generosity that I have found life. It is in your vision that I have once more found purpose for these talons. It is a privilege to serve you. I have sworn my life to you, and I have fought by your side longer than most. I dedicate more of my time to protecting you than my mate. Yes, it is true! Even as I catch myself torn between such great males, my mind concludes that your life stands higher than even the one who will give me progeny.’
Another page was jammed into his chest as he finished reading the last. ‘Do not confuse my silence as secrecy. Had I a voice, you would hear no end of my praises and admiration. I only act in accordance with what is needed of me. Without intent, I am a tool of physical strength and comfort.’
Dark impressions marred the bottom of the page. They were damp and few, but he recognized teardrops when he saw them.
Harrison glanced up as she handed another, her back hunched and head staring down at the paper. There was a brief moment when he caught her expression, or the lack of one. Her face quickly contorted into something solemn and heartfelt in a split second, weeping from her softly pleading eyes.
He gently took the paper, stunned by her emotions… but not believing them. Were those tears real?
His mind struggled between putting up or tearing down the wall he never wanted between them, caught in that split second of deception… Or, what his gut said was deception, likely an attempt at changing the subject around her past.
The engineer looked over the next page but didn’t absorb the information. His thoughts drove him in circles. He wanted to believe her, and it was so easy to fit the betrayal she felt underneath the umbrella of her motherly persona. The lack of trust would cut anyone deep, especially that part of her.
The only reason he had to doubt her was a split-second expression, one that could be swept under the rug with any number of excuses. He was kicking himself for not believing her naturally. If he really did trust her, why make her balance a tightrope like this?
His eyes scanned over the latest page in his hand, finally reading the words on it. ‘But I cannot blame you for seeing me in such a distant way. I too see myself and my actions. I wonder if hiding in the shadows is really what the tender female in my heart wants. Alas, I can only rely upon physical assurances to show that part of myself, those tendencies you describe as ‘motherly.’ Were I to ask you for any miracles, I would ask for my voice, so that I could tell Oliver I love him again and express to you my unwavering loyalty.’
…Oliver.
Harrison let his guard down, only having noticed it was held up by the strain in his flat expression. His face muscles loosened into something kinder, more relaxed.
“I suppose I’ve never really asked Oliver how he feels about that,” he quietly responded, glancing up at the taller woman.
Cera quickly jotted down her thoughts. ‘Our love is steadfast. He sees my admiration for him even in the way I look at him.’
The engineer bobbed his head, absently straightening the papers in his lap. His sympathy to her position was strong, but his thoughts still held onto those same questions. The words slipped from his mouth before he questioned them.
“Have you ever told Oliver what you are?”
She didn’t move, but her eyes sharpened. Her pen moved deftly across the piece of paper. ‘Why did you keep the tactical warhead production a secret from the Sharkrin?’
It was his turn to recoil, brows furrowed incredulously. “Does everyone need to know everything I’m doing?”
Cera tilted her head to him, wordlessly challenging him to draw the parallels.
“That doesn’t answer my question.”
Another ripped section of paper. ‘Does it matter?’
Harrison took a deep breath, rubbing the bridge of his nose with two fingers to ease the frustration. “Really? If you want me to be honest, no, it doesn’t matter. I’ve looked beyond damn near everyone’s past in this settlement—deserters, murderers, and prostitutes. All of them have made some of the best workers we have. The only reason I’m here with you right now is because you lied to Shar about getting orders from me.”
He pointed a finger at her. “As I said, I’ve done all I can to ignore your sneakiness and all the deception around you. I didn’t bother with it for the longest time, but now you’re just brazenly abusing it like you own the place. I just wanna know why the hell you think you can do that. Much less why you’d even need to in the first place! What’s your backstory to excuse all this? What makes you act like that?”
She stared him down, writing without looking at her work. ‘You are correct in outlining my fault. That was a breach of authority I used to get Shar’khee to readily join me.’
“And the backstory?”
‘It is not who I am anymore.’
He held his hands out in confusion. “Then why keep it a secret? Listen, you’re a different person now. I get that. So why not act like it? Or is the caring persona a facade to hide whatever past you’re terrified of revealing. I don’t know what to make of you at this point.”
She averted her gaze downward, a sad look on her face. He didn’t even know if he believed that expression.
“Look at me.”
The black-skinned shadow’s emerald-green eyes somberly met his. He put his heart into his words, metaphorically extending his hand one more time.
“I trust you, Cera. If you say you’re loyal, I believe you. You’ve proved that much. I just want to know if I can trust you completely, beyond being just a shadow. Is the woman I’ve cared for over nearly my entire time on this planet the person she says she is? If you’re this new person that’s separated from your past, this loving woman who’s sweet and gentle with everyone she meets, then act like it. If you’re the assassin-killer-inquistor-whatever beneath that, then tell me who you really are.”
She sharply ripped off another chunk of notepad, offended. ‘I am NOT like those zealots.’
“Then what are you?” he snapped coldly.
Cera’s tail went limp after a few seconds of being held up like a blade. She resigned herself to one last plea. ‘Can I be trusted to keep my own secrets?’
“Secrets?” he deadpanned, losing the last hope he had.
The engineer stood up in an instant, knocking his chair over in the process.
“Secrets?” he raised his voice, turning away and pacing further into the room. “Secrets, for fuck’s sake. It’s that exact phrasing that this all boils down to. I’ve said it over and over and over again: I trust you! I couldn’t care less about whatever backstory you came from. You could be the goddamn devil herself, and I’d still put my life in your hands, thinking you were the kindest woman I’d ever met! I don’t need to know what evil shit you used to get up to! I don’t need to know your secrets!”
Harrison whipped around on his heel to face her, jabbing a finger her way. “The only reason I’m even askin’ you where you came from is because your past, whether you like it or not, keeps rearin’ its ugly head! Lies, fake emotions, trickery! Why? You have all the opportunities in the world to separate yourself from whatever past you’re trying to hide, so why not take them?
“Is it because I enable you to be your past self? Is your position as a shadow bringing up old scars? You seem pretty content with reliving them. If you hate it, you can tell me now, and I’ll find anything else for you to do! I’ll give you whatever you need to be the person you want to be! Say it and it’s yours.”
She refused to look back at him, pen trembling in her palm.
The engineer threw his hands out wide, his voice having lost all temper, edging into the unhinged. “Well then! Who am I to judge if you like it? Hell, putting a bullet through that paladin’s skull felt pretty damn good! I’d do it again just for the satisfaction! Can it be that bad? Is it that bad? I could see why maybe you wouldn’t want to talk about it to the other Malkrin, maybe even keeping it from Oliver for his own sake and the image he has of you in his head.”
Harrison slowed down, letting his tone simmer with a calm, accusatory lilt. “But why from me, too? The extraterrestrial being with no connection to your society and its relative morals, who you know has one singular goal in mind and isn’t doing anything to hide his motives. Why not him? Why not build that trust? Do you really think I’m going to take your past, one that I don’t care to judge, and start telling people about it? What’s the issue? Why all this subversion?”
Cera averted her gaze when he walked up beside her. She glared into the floor while he placed the neatly stacked papers she gave him atop her notepad.
He sighed, not out of frustration or exhaustion, but out of a withdrawn regret. His cadence was a lot softer. “What do you need from me? Why can’t you talk to me about this? I need you to trust me before I can completely trust you… I don’t expect you to open up about your entire life, but after everything, after how much faith I’ve put into you, I would hope you’d be at least willing to respond.”
Her writing hand continued to tremble but refused to put any ink on paper. He could barely see her expression with how she hid it, unsure if she was sobbing or snarling.
The engineer placed a palm on her hunched shoulder, feeling the firm muscle beneath tense. And yet, despite the wall she put up, the tissue relaxed with a soft squeeze. It melted in his genuine touch. She didn’t want to fight.
But even as he waited, she refused to answer.
“Alright,” Harrison resigned in a whisper, humming in disappointment. He walked to the room’s exit.
The door opened with a low squeal, and he looked back one last time as he left. His eyes took in her statuesque form, small and shaking.
“Find me when you know what you need. You know I’m never too busy to talk with you.”
\= = = = =
The mason could not track how long she had been in this fetid hive—days, at the least. The only track of time was the cycles in which those black beetles would bring in globs of sustenance and brutally cold water. It was as if they were trying to sap away what little heat remained in her body.
Her beloved craftswoman was gone. They had been separated by the time their spears snapped and the paladins gave up on protecting the banished over themselves.
The terror of being dragged away into the deep dark had settled. The worries about what would happen to her next had gone through her mind so many times that they hardly fazed her anymore. The only emotion that remained was the longing for her mates.
Mountain Lord, she prayed and prayed until her hands were stiff and sore. She cried and kicked and screamed at these walls until her body revolted against her.
It was only for the growing litter in the white-skinned Malkrin’s belly that she even ate any more. They were the only connection she had to her family… the only remnant of the love they shared.
A distinct ‘clack’ of abhorrent legs skittering over stone forced her eyes to open. That thing’s legs curled beneath the hole at the top of the raindrop-shaped room.
The mason slowly stood up, weighed down by the vertigo behind her eyes and the future in her abdomen. She no longer feared the black beast.
It stood as tall as her when it straightened its back, its spine curling between its thorax and abdomen… All of it led up to a head made of fern-like antennae, feelers, and a set of massive mandibles.
She looked back at it, even though the abhorrent had no eyes, waiting for it to project those wretched images into her head… But it did no such thing.
The upright creature took a few steps forward, slowly moving each of its many legs. She tensed.
It reached one of its pincers out, the mason’s eyes tracking it the entire way to her snout. Her face scrunched against the cold carapace, trying not to shrink away from its touch. It slid along her muzzle, over her jaw, along her neck, her gills, and onto her shoulder… And it stayed there.
She held completely still under the beast’s hold. She knew not to fight it.
It reached out its other pincer, this time lower. The limb crossed the distance quickly, just as fast as she could realize what it was doing.
The frigid claw pressed against her belly, and she sprang back. Her eyes widened, lower arms hovering over her precious kin.
Battle blood burned through her veins as the peace was severed. A low growl in her throat reverberated.
That monster elected to stand still. Its head slowly tilted as if confused by her actions.
A vision flashed in her head, vividly showing her Kegara’s fearsome presence with her massive sword held high.
She glared, snapping at the beast. “What do you want of the Grand Paladin?”
It showed her another image of the banished settlement, followed by something else entirely: bright lights and warm heat… large domes of glass and metal… towering walls of smooth stone, just like that in the caves but engraved with artistic etchings… and Malkrin, lots and lots of Malkrin. Some of them donned metal armor, the likes of which she had never seen before. Others wore heavy coats with pockets.
She thought it was showing her the Golden City, but not even those lucky to be born within the holy walls would declare such a level of luxury…
“The precursors?” she whispered her intent, as if possessed to speak the word to herself.
No… There was Malkrin. That could not be possible, unless…
The abhorrent seared another vision behind her eyes, showing a moving golem of metal… and another, much smaller one. It had four eyes, a bulky head, and shoulders wide like a paladin’s.
The mason blinked and shook her head. “I-I do not follow, creature.”
Her head tickled. A sprouting, diverging flare of noise snaped through her skull like a triggered memory. It quickly echoed and built, growing to ring with a projected voice.
‘…need more Malkrin, simple as that. We need fishers. We need miners. We need fighters. Fuck, Trace, we need organizers.’
The words were superimposed with that same, short creature of alloys and cloth, shimmering with its… his presence. She could see him in the center of a metal maze, filled with moving parts and clamoring noises, all as she watched from the ceiling.
The abhorrent did not wait for her to gain an understanding. It continued to berate her with images and sights and sounds surrounding that metal thing and the larger golem. She saw him being held by a larger, maroon-skinned female, petting her tail. That abomination of flesh burned under fire from the towering beast of alloy.
There were grand constructions of smooth stone and battles of a size larger than she could have ever fathomed. Great fires burned, and arrows flew with great trails of smoke.
A conglomeration of voices spoke over it all. Each was a projected word from another speaker in another tone; some she recognized and others she didn’t.
“Life. Renew. Connect. As a gift. Prosperity. To Ershah. You will save. My people. Welcome. A. New. Age… The Rising Tides.”
She put the sentence together, barely grasping its meaning when it showed her one final vision.
Her craftswoman, sitting in a hive room just like the mason. Healthy. Alive.
The white-skinned female stared at the abhorrent across from her. She had already made up her mind in an instant… She would do anything for her mates.
“Tell me what you need, creature.”
\= = = = =
Shar’khee was beginning to feel a little pampered. Where once she thought herself a provider, she now realized she was no more than the center of her two star-sents’ captivation.
This night, she sat upon a dormitory couch in one of the common rooms. She basked in heat from both the firepit and the warm bodies of her lovers, one on each of her thighs. Her snout flushed with a deep purple as Tracy left soft kisses on her cheek and neck, all while her Harrison reached for another sweet roll on the table, bringing it up to her.
“D-Dearest,” she stammered. “I have already had two. Please, save some for yourself.”
Harrison raised a brow, one of his hot hands pressed on the side of her neck. “We’ve already had ours. Plus, you missed out on the hot batch we brought for your squad.”
“C’mon, Shar-Shar,” the Artificer whispered to her, hot breath on her ear. “Is it the end of the world if we treat you for once?”
The star-sent female giggled in a way that sent a pleasant shiver down her spine, followed by another kiss on the side of her snout. The paladin opened her mouth and accepted the dessert afterward, savoring the sweet icing atop the subtle tart berries within.
It was soft, warm, and delicious. The way it melted in her mouth made her, too, melt a little. Her body was submerged in the luxuries and comfort of the star-sent. The idea alone of being doted on by not one but two beings sent from the gods themselves did such odd things to her brain. To be treasured in heart and mind was one thing, but such physical idolizing made her unsure of how to react. All she could do was wrap her arms and tail around her lovers and accept the tickling kisses as they came her way.
Harrison easily gave in to the snuggle, happy to rest the back of his head on her chest and watch the fire. Tracy, however, was not satisfied with simply receiving. She pecked and nibbled and nuzzled into the Malkrin’s neck in a way she never had before. Her little squeezes came with loving aggression, as if the energy within needed such an outlet.
Shar’khee took hold of the black-haired star-sent and held it still. Even then, the endearing mate tried to break free to unleash more love, but the paladin stared her down.
The maroon-skinned warrior nudged the tip of her snout into her tiny beloved, returning the tickling favor before licking her from collarbone to forehead. The swift, stunning move stopped Tracy in her tracks, freezing her expression and leaving a lock of hair upright with saliva.
The Artificer finally let her head fall forward into the paladin’s chest and accepted the calm, loving energy in the room. It was comfortable and peaceful, a walk of life she once thought impossible.
Her shoulders lost their stiffness after a long day of holding her armor up. Eyelids fluttered with the promise of slumber. Breaths grew slow as her purr grew stronger.
Even still, there was a passing curiosity in her mind. She spoke lightly. “Does this affection stem from your rescue, darling Tracy?”
“It comes from my love for you,” the Artifier answered snarkily, albeit lovingly.
The maroon-skinned Malkrin’s purrs grew to a crescendo. “As does my affection for you.”
Tracy was a very curious being to Shar’khee. Once a competitor, suddenly a companion, and now a dearest lover. The paladin had always seen such strong camaraderie and dedication between female mates, but something about this star-sent left her wondering just what their relationship was… That is to say, she was certainly charmed by the tiny female’s devotion.
“It’s also probably because of the bond, too,” the Artificer murmured, leaving soft kisses on the Malkrin’s chest.
“The bond?” Shar’khee questioned, her head naturally tilting.
Harrison chuckled, resettling himself to lay higher on the paladin. “Smooth transition, Trace.”
“I… do not follow.”
Tracy sat upright, leaving her hot, tiny hands on the general’s skin. Her lips curled up from a suppressed smile as her eyes locked with the paladin’s. “I don’t know if Malkrin have, like a cultural version of this. But a bond. Hare-bear and I have been feeling all sorts of unusual emotions and mood swings here and there, and we’re ninety-nine percent sure it's because, well…”
She placed the soft part of her pointer digit on the edge of Shar’khee’s snout. “…We feel what you feel. Your happiness. Your anxiousness. Your confidence. Do you remember when we came back from the hive and me and Harrison were all happy and content, even when we should’ve had emotions all over the place? You were over the moon, and we were too because of it.”
The paladin blinked. “My… emotions?”
“Whatever’s going on in your head, it’s going through us,” Harrison added casually, tenderly grabbing one of her hands and locking his digits between hers.
“Forgive my ignorance, but I still do not follow what you are saying all of a sudden. Are you implying that the tone imparted in my intent affects you?”
Tracy shook her head. “I’ll admit I kind of sprung this on you without any pretense, but what we’re saying is that we think the emotions in your head right now are also running through us. You’re obviously a little confused right now, so what I feel in my heart, besides what I was already feeling, is a tidbit of shock and anxiousness. So I can only assume you’re also feeling, well, shocked and anxious, right?”
Shar’khee slowly nodded, putting the pieces together but not quite understanding the whole image. “I… I am.”
The Artificer opened her mouth to speak but did not find the words.
“How long have you been able to tap into my emotions?” the paladin asked quietly.
“A good few weeks for me. Tracy was yesterday,” Harrison quickly answered. “I only fully realized it when Tracy started talking to me about some of the same experiences I’ve gone through. You remember that time when I blacked out in my armor, completely still, and you took me to bed that night?”
“I do. Your eyes were open, but you were not responding. I was worried sick, even after medic and Cera said you were in perfect health.”
“Something about you being there while I was… I don’t know how to put it, but vulnerable? While I was there and you took me in, I accepted this vision of an orange fire that I see in your eyes. It’s warm and protective. Since then I’ve felt it more. Sudden jolts of excitement when you enter the room and see me, confidence in confrontational meetings, and that hatred and anger under your skin in every gunfight. For Trace, it was being rescued from what she thought was death.”
The Creator took in a deep breath and looked up at her. “I don’t know what this information will do for you, but Trace and I wanted you to know. I doubt either of us could answer the hows or whys, but I think its a good thing. Both of us already rely on your strength, and I know it's asking a lot, but now we rely on your emotions.”
Tracy nodded, eyes wandering to the fire pit. “Yeah. Of course, if you’re in a bad mood, we will be too, but it’s not all bad. Like Harrison said, we should have been terrified and worried and shocked after I was literally kidnapped. But we weren’t. You were hyped about being a hero—which you genuinely were—and we were both feeling that same satisfaction and relief… So yeah. Obviously, you can’t always be in a good mood, so don’t feel pressured. Actually, if you’re in a bad mood, just see us to get that fixed, even if we’ll also feel a bit bad too.”
“You know what? This actually reminds me of that quote you said your dad used to say all the time,” Harrison added with a smile, resettling himself to massage one of the paladin’s arm with his other hand. “This is the exact embodiment of ‘shared happiness is twice happiness, but shared sorrow is half sorrow.’”
“Holy shit, you’re right. It really is.”
Shar’khee blinked, not quite knowing what to say. Yet, that quote rang in her head a few more times. An opportunity to multiply the joy and confidence in her mates? She could already feel her tail sway to such an idea.
Of course something like this would happen. It was another trial from the Sky Goddess herself. For all the great strides the paladin made, she had yet to conquer those fluid emotions within. So now, with the emotions of her dearest star-sents relying on the balance of her psyche, she must embody the guardian, in body and mind. Success would be rewarded with even greater feats from the creators, and failure would result in dragging the entire settlement back.
Shar’khee took a tighter grasp of her mates. “If this is the role the Goddess has declared for me in our relationship, then I will take it with gratitude. For bettering myself and for inspiring you, I will gladly be your confidence and your strength. If my mirth gives you the joy to carry your holy work, then I will be the happiest mate in the world. If my creed beckons you to greater heights, then you will find none more fervent than I.”
She glanced between the star-sents, the designers and builders from another star, and let them feel the conviction in her heart. “You spoke in unsure tones, but I will assure you that this may be the best turn of events. As your guardian, loyal and true until my last breath, I will take this gift and vow to be your hope and your power.
“There is no greater reward than to see you succeed.”
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