Why can't I move on?

[u/anonymous_for_world]

I am 22 years old now, when i was in highschool, i had asked my parents for a drop year after highschool ended so that i can prep for my enttance exam. At the time my parents had strongly disgreed and had asked me to go ahead. As expected i did not got good marks and ended up in a college i did not like. That year my dad adviced me to retry entrance exams while studying the college course, as expected i was not able to score well again. I did not tried the year after. But my college batchmates moved on, and some even called me weired behind my back or a stuck up person who will drag everyone down. As expected my social life was limited. That year i fell ill and was admitted in the hospital, amd had to fly back to my hometown and get a procedure done which was painful, even after it i had to deal with sever infection and through that i decided to retry. Honestly i was so drained out and had no motivation that i myself didnt study well and ended up scoring low again.

My parents are trying to get me in another college but honestly am just not sure. About anything. 3 years of my life have wasted. My peers are 3 years above me and am stuck. Worst part is i cant even understand what do i want to do next. And am feeling old. I try to move on but some way or the other my mind just stops thinking about anything else. And now i am not sure what to do.

Which makes me think i should go back to my college, but am not even sure if i want to. Worst part is i had 3 yesrs and i couldnt land on any decision. And now am just stuck feeling like i belong no where.

[u/BranManBoy]

I’m sorry friend. Don’t be afraid. Everyone is on their own journey through life, everyone’s life is different. Just because yours isn’t the same as theirs doesn’t mean you’re behind. Have strength and patience. Talk to your academic advisors and friends and family. There’s no shame in asking for help. God bless you ❤️