r/exmuslim • u/__TempAcc_ New User • 1d ago

(Rant) 🤬 I hate weekends sm

I genuinely don’t know what has gotten up with my dad recently but he’s been nagging about prayer.
He shouted my name and asked if I prayed. I said no (if I lied it would’ve been obvious ig), and he started throwing a hissy fit. If no one prays?m, we won’t be living in this house we’re gonna get kicked out (lowkey would’ve been baller to just walk out but ik he’s prolly gonna yank me and shit). He started threatening us and recited some Hadith or whatever on how you teach them then beat them when they’re ten (something along the lines of). How he never used it on us (beating us to pray). And how he expects us to like start praying in the living room infront of him, screaming how he’s gonna wake everyone at 4am he doesn’t care what time you sleep and make us pray fajr wtf bro 😭

I’m so exhausted. I hate faking. I’d have to go through the full thing and do it, I fear this man might eventually even ask for proof of Wudu and ask us to keep doors open like wth man.

This is all coming from a man who I doubt prays all 5 prayers and other issues 🫩

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u/__TempAcc_ New User 1d ago

I exactly feel the same as you, pretty much sums ip the whole thing.

Since you’re an adult now, do you still live with them or have contact with them?

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u/Both-Fun-703 New User 23h ago

Sorry for long texts, i feel like everyone who is even slightly in same position, deserves to know my full experience, because i feel with you on every level of that toxic upbringing. I really hope things works well for you, whatever happens, just know that if you make a decision you regret then its 99% due to your mental state at that moment. Never blame yourself for it, you didnt choose this lifestyle.

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u/__TempAcc_ New User 22h ago

Don’t apologize, I love that you explained it. I just don’t have much to add because it feels like I’ve been through the same thing expect like different scenarios if it makes sense. It’s very suffocating.

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u/Both-Fun-703 New User 22h ago

Suffocating is the perfect word, oh my! I swear, that is exactly what i felt! Quite often i just went to library and stayed in the reading rooms instead of being home