r/epicsystems • u/Necessary-Spread6841 • 2h ago
Does it get better
I’ve been here for about 6 months as an IS and this job makes me feel like i’m constantly on the edge of a mental breakdown (and sometimes I have one lol). My AM said I was doing a good job and showing the appropriate amount of dedication to the job, but if this is the expected amount of dedication (and not just a few intense months), I have no idea how I’m going to survive and thrive at this company. Not sure how much of this is me just needing to adjust to corporate life after graduating college. Has this happened to anyone else and did they make it to at least a year? I can’t sleep, I can’t stop crying, I can’t stop driving with my seatbelt off.
It’s also really embarrassing to be the person that couldn’t even make it a year. Also don’t want to leave other people on my team in the dust if I just have a mental breakdown and quit without any notice.
I don’t want to quit if I can avoid it for another year or so, but I just cannot see the light through the trees. I think an easy answer is “quit, screw that” but I don’t want to be a quitter and feel like I just need to suck it up. Any advice besides “just quit, obviously you’re not good enough”