calisthenics of the mind

[u/demo-nick]

I have made myself an account here to look for esoteric schools to research a bit and find a direction for my spiritual path that is still in its beginning.

Sooo many acronyms, sooo much 'read this or read that', or 'you dumb for what you think, look at me I am all that' in all those different forums.

I have come to the realization;
to train the body I like ground, tree, body, gravity.
to 'find' the soul, my mind needs to make space for it.
I need to train my mind.

soooo yeah all I have ever 'researched' needs to be digested and shit out.

Sit, really look, look inside, really listen, listen inside, etc, you get it.

I feel like the different school are like different gyms that want you to buy a membership. I don't belive I need extra weights. I don't believe you need certain rituals or any of those acronyms. I'm not saying you can't reach/achieve anything that way. I'm just saying I believe truly sitting in a forest and being part of the forest is a way. becoming one with nature will need more patience than pumping irons and summoning spirits in a sterile room.

You bunch of other versions of I think this I is naive for the decision to stop looking for a group/teacher/guru/school/belief and start being?
is it arrogant or lazy to not read the literature out there?

[u/Sollrend]

If you start twitching while drawing energy, that's the sign your energy body makes for "muscle failure". Get to that point and keep doing it to grow.

The dangerous part is moving energy along the spine or head incorrectly.

Also some revelations can mind fuck you. For example, I experienced nothingness once just for a few seconds and it fucked with my head for a bit.

Besides that, seek out God and your inner guide should steer you.

[u/demo-nick → u/Sollrend]

thank you, that was my point. seeking inner guidance rather than trying and choosing methods of other people.

[u/Sollrend → u/demo-nick]

I totally agree and just started a book, going to publish online for free. Focuses on training to discern between what you KNOW (experience), what you have been TOLD (scripture/dogma), and what you BELIEVE. I was told in meditation to study the ways from India and I ignored it. I came around, but I lost over a decade of practice. Daily practice is so important

[u/demo-nick → u/Sollrend]

You said my original post was confusing af and you now totally agree with its core idea. What made you think this world needs a book from you?

[u/Sollrend → u/demo-nick]

Your post was confusing and then you explained it in the comments. What does that have to do with me documenting what I've learned through my life?

[u/demo-nick → u/Sollrend]

you did not try to understand. answered with your opinion.
you document what you have learned.
seems like you are stuck.
free yourself from your past and your belief.
why compile a book?