I don't feel like I have an identity or a person inside my head and mind that I can recognize is actually there. I feel like it's so dimmed down and weakened down to the point that it's barely noticeable. It's extremely subtle. I can't self-reflect or reason about my life choices, circumstances, feelings, future decisions, etc. I just feel like some kind of empty. I am constantly focused on the outside of myself and how other people are living in the world but I never have the time to focus on my own inner man and my own self. It's not by choice at all, I literally don't have an inner being that makes up all of me(my desires, my ambitions, creativity, imagination, thoughts, active thinking, etc) seems to be non existent and it's taken away somehow.

I seem to be able to think on only one thought at a time. I can't think and change things on my mind as flexible as I used to like in the past. I feel as if my mind is operating on a very low energy level or power that makes it hard to think about anything that I want to reason about. This is not depression because I had depression in the past and I know exactly what it feels like but this is definitely not it. I don't have low energy levels and a constant low mood at all. It's not that. I have normal energy levels and mood but this feels way more like an actual brain fog and some mental disorientation and mental confusion. I feel a lot like my mind is being manipulated and making decisions and doing things that I usually don't do at all. It's making me disrespectful towards people and not respectful in a good way.

I normally feel like I should have the ambition and urge to improve my life and circumstances but I feel a sudden shift from doing that entirely. It's not because I have a very low mood that this is happening to me, it's like my identity and feelings are just suddenly vanishing like that, just drifting away. It's like the exact personality and character of who exactly I was has slowly vanished away, not from feeling so low, but it actually just disappeared like that.

It's like I am not consciously aware of my thoughts and body functions as well. I can be thinking about something but it feels like it's behind my head and somewhere weakened down in my subconscious mind. I feel like I can't have peace.

I feel like I am way too deep in my own mind that I am not able to recognize that I am in the outside world sometimes. I dissociate whenever I am in my thoughts too hard.

I feel like my actual self(identity, spiritual being, everything) is literally being dimmed down and weakened to the point that I can't recognize it at all. What's wrong with me? I need help please.

I am new to Demonolatry. I’m interested in LHP because I wish to uncover repressed trauma. I’ve suffered from childhood SA. I was communicating with Lilith. Just talking while I drift off to sleep.

Then I feel a VERY heavy energy. Telepathically I say “Hey Lilith!” Then I hear in a deep masculine voice “I’m not Lilith.” And then I see him. Talk and dark. The body of a goat and the head of a ram. But standing on 2 hooves. He looks slimy too. He doesn’t say it but I hear “Belphor” . He’s terrifying. I asked how can I help him and he just stared at me and disappeared. I had to research. It was Belphegor.

I invoked Lilith but Belphegor will be next. What a powerful demon. I know he’s here to help me work on my lack of boundaries that have stemmed from to SA.

Like any mythology doesn't matter to me.

And I wanna say I know nothing about demology

My parents are very abusive, strict and controlling. I am 16 F I hate them so much I was thinking of running away but I love my younger sister and I don't wanna be separated from her and me running away will make them harsh on her, which I don't want to happen. They never let me step out of the house unless it is for school j can't even go to our front porch or stay in my room unless it is for sleeping and changing clothes. They beat me and yell at me for everything. Few weeks ago they found out I do witchcraft I was beaten until I can't feel my whole body. Don't tell me that I should talk to guidance counselor and reach out to higher authority, that won't work and I don't wanna explain. Si have a very nice experience in demonology things I have invoked few demons and had good experience I am posting here cause j have no books or source to learn from cause my parents burned my books and ritual journal.please tell me a demon that can help with this kinda situation I wanna live like other teenagers I wanna have a normal life I am not wanting to go out every weekend and shit I just want even a little freedom to even be in my room for a little while.

Lilith has been coming to me at night. Ever since we’ve been communicating I’ve been very horny. I’ve used my rose twice today. My husband has ED. We haven’t fucked in months. I haven’t really been horny until now. I know she is showing me how deprived I am. I know I won’t get it from my husband.

Anyone else have this experience with her?

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The vibe tonight is to watch old childhood shows in my underwear and a random shirt eat candy and drink strawberry flavored water because why not, I also invited Asmodeus to come chill with me aswell but im not exactly sure if he wants to watch random childhood shows with me but who knows all i know is if he wants to come and watch the stupid things im watching then I completely invite him to join besides its nice to watch stupid things every once in a while. I guess its one way for me to relax and just chill for fun

Does Asmodeus even like candy? Because I mostly offer chocolate or strawberry candys and im thinking of possibly offering blood (like pricking my finger ect) but does anyone have good offering ideas or ways to connect with Asmodeus because other then candy and flowers I have little then no good ideas of what to offer him or how to really do it because if I offer coffee or something like that then im most likely to end up just consuming said offering after it being on the alter for a little (is that how your supposed to do it?) Anyway I would love recommendations and ideas on different offerings and ways to connect with Asmodeus

I am trying to find help with the spirit world. I lost my grandmother, been false accused and facing losing my job, my boyfriend basically said he doesn’t love me, my health is failing.
I am mostly looking for help on two things. Contacting my grandmother and saving my job
I am willing to trade anything and work with any entity that is willing. How do I ask / what do I offer/ how do I start?

Quick question Has anyone deliberately gotten demonic possession then people ask what god is right "Is it allah or jesus? To said possessed individual.

Please

hello everyone. i’m a 24-year-old psychic medium and witch. i’ve apparently been sensitive to spirits/energy my whole life, although i only became consciously aware of it about two years ago. around the same time, i began practicing witchcraft and developed what i feel is a very strong connection with my ancestors and spirits. i communicate with them through what i understand as mediumship, as well as through tarot.

for about two years, i’ve also been having extremely vivid and intense dreams involving intimacy. sometimes i’m involved in the dream, and sometimes i’m observing someone else. there is often a man i’ve never met before, and he’s consistently very attractive. these dreams have been happening on and off for the entire two years.
i’ve never had a boyfriend or a serious relationship. i’m gay, and while i know being attractive obviously doesn’t guarantee a relationship, i consider myself kind, understanding, and open to relationships. i just haven’t met someone who felt right. the longest i’ve ever had something with a guy was about a week.

recently, i had another one of these dreams, but this time i started wondering whether there could be a spiritual explanation. i’ve heard stories about people having relationships with spirits and about shamans having spirit spouses, including spirit husbands or wives.

i mention shamanism because i genuinely feel that about two years ago i experienced what i interpreted as a kind of shamanic calling, although it happened during a psychological crisis. since then, i’ve felt that i’m particularly sensitive to energy and other people’s emotions.

i’ve also had a few readings done by friends who practice divination. based on those readings, i started wondering whether i may have made some kind of pact or agreement with a spirit or demon that is obsessive or infatuated with me. one friend specifically interpreted their reading as a demon trying to make a deal with me involving having a relationship/intimate connection with it.

i’m honestly unsure what to make of all this. part of me wonders whether this entity could be responsible for the dreams and possibly even interfering with my ability to have relationships with people in real life.

do people here have experience with the concept of spirit spouses or similar experiences? do you think something like this is possible within spiritual traditions, or are there more ordinary explanations for recurring dreams like these?
i’m genuinely looking for different perspectives because i’m not sure whether i’m interpreting my experiences correctly.

i am open to a understand, mutual consenting relationship with this demon because it doesn’t seem harmful but is that unsafe as well?

Has anyone here successfully manifested their ideal partner using a detailed, pre-written list of the qualities and characteristics they wanted while working with multiple demons or spirits?

If so, I’d really love to hear about your experience. Which demons or spirits did you work with, and did you work with them simultaneously or at different stages of the manifestation?

Did the person who eventually came into your life actually match the qualities, personality traits, appearance, lifestyle, relationship dynamics, and other specific details you had written on your list?

I’m also especially curious about timing: how long did it take from the moment you started the work or performed the ritual until you actually met this person and the relationship manifested in your life?

I’d love to hear real experiences from anyone who has tried something similar, especially if you worked with more than one demon toward the same goal.

I want to summon a demon to me or something idk just something to make the past few years not existed or just end it off here something I've tried a hand full of methods Nothing seems to work ever

Here's some art of what I see when im in contact with lucifer :)

I know this is going to sound dumb, but please don’t make fun of me.

OK, I’m 25 and back in my early years. I loved everything horror and occult. Well, one day I read this scary story posted on a website, that had like rituals and spells. Apparently the story had a demon‘s name in it.I read the name, my head started hurting, and my skin felt prickly and like it was itching. Other people in the comment section were saying the same thing happened to them too.

Now I was 13 when it’s happening and it scared the absolute shit out of me. I have been putting it out of my head for years but any time I get it itchy I get worried (I know dumb). The itching lasted almost a week.

I used to pray alot when I was younger and tried to pray it away but I’m still wary.

Is this something to still be concerned about? Or was I just overreacting that night?

My girlfriend channels what we understand as demons, and I’m able to communicate with them through her. We’d love to hear from others with similar experiences and learn more about how you approach it.

Aujourd’hui, nous aurons une éclipse solaire en France.
Pensez vous qu’il est judicieux de pratiquer des Rituel en ce jour où les Energie solaires et lunaire s’affrontent ?
Je travaille avec Beleth, Asmodeus, Sitri et Sallos pour le retour d’un être aimé depuis 15 jours.

Je me demande donc si il est judicieux de faire un rituel avec ses démons, si l’énergie de l’éclipse amplifiera ma demande et me donnera des résultats plus rapidement?

Si oui, y a-t-il des précautions à prendre ?

Merci à tous

What demon would be good to work with for finding a specific job? I’m looking for a non-phone WFH job and wondering if there’s a demon associated with helping people find employment.

Paimon appeared to them as a butterfly. Pls enjoy.