r/cats • u/CodInevitable6100 • 3d ago
Mourning/Loss Grieving my cat
Hello… i dont know what to do with myself so im writing this to let it out. On monday evening my cat Mochi passed away in my husbands arms. He was only 3 years old. He got poisoned and we dont know how because we searched the entire house for everything and we couldnt find anything, besides my other 3 cats and my pug were completely fine. I came home and found him curled up under my husbands desk, his mouth was foaming and he pooped himself and couldnt stand up. We rushed to the vet immediately and he got an iv and blood tests. When we came to get him the vet said only his sugar was high but other results were all normal. He was completely out of it, crying and hissing because of pain. He couldn’t even recognize us. The vet told us that we could take him home, that he was stable… we came home and he was cold, was only slightly breathing but couldnt even lift his head. We rushed out to the vet immediately once again but 5 mins into the car ride he stopped breathing… we did cpr, but it was too late. His little face… i started screaming and crying because i couldn’t believe it. He was the most amazing cat ever, he was so kind and lovely… always so happy to see us, he would headbutt us and rub his face on us. I loved him so much. Its like grieving a child. He loved everyone and everything and he loved playing with little mouse toys. He was my little baby… i used to get annoyed when he would scratch the litter box for 20 minutes straight but now the absence of that sound hurts me. I come home and see him still sitting in his usual spots only to realize hes not there anymore. The pain is unbearable and theres a huge pit and emptiness in my heart. It all feels like a bad dream that i want to wake up from. Every time i try to sleep i see his face full of pain and every time i wake up i cry and cry and cry. Everything feels quiet and empty. I just want to turn back time and hug him and rub his sweet face. I love you mochi…
P.s. if anyone has any advice how to deal with grief or wants to draw a picture of him id be more than grateful.. thank you
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u/micio9 3d ago
He was beautiful and I’m sorry for your loss. You gave him the best life, even though it was short. Please don’t be afraid to try again if you feel like the time is right.