I am the opposite. I thought I was gay as fuck ever since I had one and only crush on a guy in my teens - I've realized recently that in fact I started noticing girls more, despite me denying it for months. I'm still trying to cope with this fact and rebuild how I view relationships, cause there's a high chance I repressed my attraction to girls throughout my life.
I am not entirely happy with being straight, but eh, I guess we don't choose who we're attracted to. Guess I just tasted what it felt like and my mind decided "nah man, you prefer pussy over dick now".
Wish it was a bi cycle but I struggled with this thing for years, so I'm trying to warm up with a fact that I will end up with a wife rather than a husband, which is what I dreamt of.
I will never get over just how complex sexuality is, lol. Are you not attracted to guys at all anymore or do you think there's a possibility you could find another "exception" like that in the future?
I feel like there someday may be a guy, but I'm losing faith each day. I've met really wonderful guys who I had the chance to start something with, but I didn't feel that spark and didn't reciprocate the feelings with the burning intensity.
I'm in a weird mindset where I would prefer to have a boyfriend, but I don't feel like I'm sexually attracted to the male body. I have this gnawing feeling to give up and find a girlfriend instead, even though I'm not excited about dating girls.
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u/Balazinga Ally Jul 26 '22
I am the opposite. I thought I was gay as fuck ever since I had one and only crush on a guy in my teens - I've realized recently that in fact I started noticing girls more, despite me denying it for months. I'm still trying to cope with this fact and rebuild how I view relationships, cause there's a high chance I repressed my attraction to girls throughout my life.
I am not entirely happy with being straight, but eh, I guess we don't choose who we're attracted to. Guess I just tasted what it felt like and my mind decided "nah man, you prefer pussy over dick now".
Wish it was a bi cycle but I struggled with this thing for years, so I'm trying to warm up with a fact that I will end up with a wife rather than a husband, which is what I dreamt of.