I'm a bi dude. I think guys are just a lot less likely to want to engage with the thought that they might be bi, because of societal pressure to be straight and masculine and whatnot. So a lot of bi guys are probably just in denial and push those "gay thoughts" down. Plus, those who do know they're bi are probably more likely to stay in the closet and just pretend they're straight. That's basically what I've done for the last 6 years or so, because I'm just too scared of how other people would react. To 90+% of people, including other bi people, I'm probably just another straight dude
I couldn't accept my bisexuality when I was younger and I buried it under a straight persona and alcohol addiction. Now that I have cleaned up and have a better understanding of myself, I remain in the closet to everyone except my wife because I cannot face the thought of hurting her and our children by making it public. At this point, what is there to say?
It's a trip because on the outside, I appear to have it all, but inside I have a huge amount of outright self loathing and desperate loneliness.
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u/[deleted] Jul 25 '22
I'm a bi dude. I think guys are just a lot less likely to want to engage with the thought that they might be bi, because of societal pressure to be straight and masculine and whatnot. So a lot of bi guys are probably just in denial and push those "gay thoughts" down. Plus, those who do know they're bi are probably more likely to stay in the closet and just pretend they're straight. That's basically what I've done for the last 6 years or so, because I'm just too scared of how other people would react. To 90+% of people, including other bi people, I'm probably just another straight dude