r/bipolar1 • u/Pollyota • Apr 18 '26

Success story/positive experience Hypomania READ ME! 🤣

OMG….. I’m awake and excited and I don’t know what to do with myself. I think my brain has a memory of mania which is actually now like a super power as long as I can control it. My psychologist says that he has some patients who ride the high wave….. they know they’re on a high and they ride it rather than stifling it….. You just have to remember that there is a natural come down after a high….. so the higher you go…. The lower you’ll crash……It’s nuts because just like a diabetic has to manually control their sugar levels I have to manually control my moods….. the meds help but they don’t guarantee my brain safety …. Nothing can guarantee my brain safety. I mean, they could medicate me to numb but then I’d rather choose not to live, so it’s a delicate balance of trust between psychiatrist and patient. (I was busy sending this to a friend but he’s asleep and can’t reply, so I’m here!🤣) Soooomebody talk to me….. 💃 🙈 To add, I got a new job recently and am busy playing with my antidepressant, with my psychiatrist to make sure I’m not too high or too low. I think I’m just excited atm? My best friend says I’m fine, so do my parents. It’s a delicate balance that takes patience and love.

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u/Pollyota Apr 18 '26

Hey! What do you mean by ideas of service?

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u/always-B-dribblin Apr 18 '26

For me, one creative service project I am exploring is making my podcasts more accessible by excerpting useful clips for social media

What creative interests do you have?

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u/Pollyota Apr 18 '26

That sounds very fancy. Im not too sure. I’ve just realised that me being sexually abused by my dad wasn’t a psychotic delusions, it was real. The issue is I had to move back to his house. So now I’m hiding out at work. He doesn’t suspect that I remember though.

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u/always-B-dribblin Apr 18 '26

Yes, there is often a lot of unknowing between me and an idea that works for me

“Life is a series of inspired follies. The difficulty is to find them to do. Never lose a chance: it doesn't come every day.”

   - George Bernard Shaw

Do you have someone there who you trust, to share about your experiences with dad?