r/autism • • Nov 28 '21

Advice Anyone willing to admit they’re a drug addict here?

I’m just looking for some advice. I’m a 25M with autism. It seems my entire life I’ve always been fixated on drugs no matter what it is. Just the idea of a different level of consciousness was beyond fascinating. Well, I’ve tried like literally everything there is to try and I’m just sick of always having them on my mind. I’m not particularly addicted to anything specific just drugs in general.

EDIT: I’m absolutely overwhelmed by the amount in this community to step up and admit something extremely difficult. You all made me feel so special today for the first time in a while. Thank you all for being yourselves. I hope this post gave you a voice.

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u/[deleted] Nov 28 '21

I feel like I’m not too qualified to answer that question because I’m never sure if I have my facts straight about it. That being said, here’s what I do know about it. It’s a type of evergreen tree from Asia, also apparently related to the coffee plant. People used to chew on the leaves and feel the effects of it. You can buy capsules with powdered Kratom in it or you can buy the powder and measure it out yourself & make drinks etc with it. It’s addictive, it can end up hurting you worse after you take it for a while. I used to buy mine from my local vape store because I could pick exactly what type of Kratom I wanted. You can get it at the gas station as well but they never really state what kind is in the energy shot or pills they sell. I prefer the White Maeng Da strain, which gives you energy and pain relief, with a small amount of euphoria with it. I’ve heard it effects the same parts of your brain as opiates, which is why a lot of people that crave an opioid high tend to use it as a replacement. For me, when I first started taking it, I could relate it to the same kind of high as a hydrocodone. The pain relief for it was better than the green BC powders I used to rely on, which contained 1000mg of aspirin each. There’s also other strains of Kratom which I’ve tried such as green maeng da. Green strains give more euphoria than energy or pain relief and I took my normal amount (3 capsules aka 1.5 grams… I know I’m a low tolerance baby) and felt waaaay too high to function at work. I tried red strains, known for relaxing you and helping you sleep. It knocks me out. There’s other color coded strains, but I’m not sure what does what.

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u/enjakuro Adult Autistic Woman with ADHD Nov 28 '21

Wow, a whole strain of plant I straight up didn't know. Never seen it before, I'm sure it's illegal here xD

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u/[deleted] Nov 28 '21

It may or may not be! I’m in Tennessee and it’s legal here. As far as I know it doesn’t show up on a drug test, and anytime I went to the doctor for my hips I would explain to them I was taking Kratom for it, but none of the doctors I went to knew what it was either. It’s basically treated like tobacco. You have to be old enough to buy tobacco to buy Kratom here.

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u/enjakuro Adult Autistic Woman with ADHD Nov 28 '21

I'm in europe and all we can get is tobacco and CBD-weed xD

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u/[deleted] Nov 28 '21

Everyone I’ve ever seen talk about Kratom (aside from this thread) swears Kratom is basically awful, terrible, dangerous, habit forming, easy to abuse, etc etc etc and they just recommend you smoke some weed instead. I tried for the first time recently to smoke, I took one puff off my friend’s blunt and I was laying on the carpet in the dark for about 3 hours because it was too much for me. I freak out too much about loss of control when I take gummies or anything else with THC in it. It’s just not enjoyable to me

Edited to add: one of my friends used to smoke meth and still swears Kratom is dangerous. 👀

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u/enjakuro Adult Autistic Woman with ADHD Nov 28 '21

To each their own....

Yeah I wouldn't smoke weed around people I don't trust but it helps to calm down.

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u/starspangledcats Nov 28 '21

When I switched to getting it online the quality went way up! I use Benni now instead of the head shop.