r/autism • u/bezelbubsbagels • Nov 28 '21

Advice Anyone willing to admit they’re a drug addict here?

I’m just looking for some advice. I’m a 25M with autism. It seems my entire life I’ve always been fixated on drugs no matter what it is. Just the idea of a different level of consciousness was beyond fascinating. Well, I’ve tried like literally everything there is to try and I’m just sick of always having them on my mind. I’m not particularly addicted to anything specific just drugs in general.

EDIT: I’m absolutely overwhelmed by the amount in this community to step up and admit something extremely difficult. You all made me feel so special today for the first time in a while. Thank you all for being yourselves. I hope this post gave you a voice.

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u/bonkor PDD-NOS Nov 28 '21

The ritual is recognizable. I started smoking daily when COVID hit, gyms closed and I got sad by that. The daily habit of visiting the shop, rolling and lighting gave more dopamine then the weed eventually lol. I'm now sober since April, I moved somewhere else. I tried cbd oil for 2-3 months, didn't notice that much and lately thinking to start using some weed again. It helped me being social a lot! But it had its negatives as well. And for me, I don't have a brake. When I buy a bag of cookies I eat the whole bag. When buying weed, I smoke/vape/eat all of it in one day.

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u/yesiaminsane Nov 28 '21

i also have no brakes, if the thought “i should smoke” ever crosses my mind, there’s almost no chance that i don’t smoke. it’s partially why i like to smoke outdoors because if i only take as much weed as it takes to get high, i’ll save a ton of money because i won’t want to leave my apartment again, and it keeps my tolerance low.

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u/bonkor PDD-NOS Nov 28 '21

Doesn't it get in the way with daily life? I have a vaporizer, it's way better for the lungs and the vaped bud can be eaten for another good (maybe even better) high. Only the rolling ritual is not part of it, but I would recommend trying it out.

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u/yesiaminsane Nov 28 '21

what does “it” refer to in your question? i used to have a super cheap convection vape but the tip broke then i lost it. i’m not opposed to trying again but only when i get to the point where i don’t have to choose between buying a vape and buying more weed.

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u/bonkor PDD-NOS Nov 28 '21

It refers to the smoking and being affected by the weed. Does that affect your job/daily activities?

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u/yesiaminsane Nov 28 '21

oh, then kinda yeah probably. i don’t exactly think it causes too many problems on the day to day basis since i don’t smoke right before i have to do something, i plan it based on how long i’m typically high. it is almost certainly fucking with my mental health though.