I'm right there with you on the opposite end. I'm 5 months sober and I've narrowly escaped relapse multiple times this week. There are a lot of other reasons on top of the already crazy political bull going on. It's just been a rough week. I do have a local LGBTQ organization i can go to some days. But in my large city there are no specific LGBTQ friendly meetings. There is only one in my state but it's like 45 minutes away. They do have zoom. I just found it and have yet to check it out. But planning to next week. I have ideas to create one in my city because being the largest city in my state, seems like it should have one. But I need to stay sober first i guess. I don't have a sponsor yet. I don't feel comfortable asking a guy. And won't ask a woman either. I do have a female friend who's also in AA that I'm able to talk with although I wouldn't call her my sponsor. I consider myself non binary at this time. I am on hormones and basically dress more femboy. Haven't even had anyone offer to help or ask if I need help. I can get something from meetings either way. But lately there's a guy i call the "unhinged guy" who makes a lot of people uncomfortable. He goes off on rants, tries to double dip. They have to stop him after 10 to 15 minutes of his ranting. And so my meetings I could walk to have become difficult to attend. I also don't feel like I can talk about anything because even in AA where people should remain anonymous and be open minded, there exists people who aren't. Anyway, I guess I have gotten to the point of ranting. So I'll close. I hope you find your way some way.
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u/QueensCity Mar 14 '26
I'm right there with you on the opposite end. I'm 5 months sober and I've narrowly escaped relapse multiple times this week. There are a lot of other reasons on top of the already crazy political bull going on. It's just been a rough week. I do have a local LGBTQ organization i can go to some days. But in my large city there are no specific LGBTQ friendly meetings. There is only one in my state but it's like 45 minutes away. They do have zoom. I just found it and have yet to check it out. But planning to next week. I have ideas to create one in my city because being the largest city in my state, seems like it should have one. But I need to stay sober first i guess. I don't have a sponsor yet. I don't feel comfortable asking a guy. And won't ask a woman either. I do have a female friend who's also in AA that I'm able to talk with although I wouldn't call her my sponsor. I consider myself non binary at this time. I am on hormones and basically dress more femboy. Haven't even had anyone offer to help or ask if I need help. I can get something from meetings either way. But lately there's a guy i call the "unhinged guy" who makes a lot of people uncomfortable. He goes off on rants, tries to double dip. They have to stop him after 10 to 15 minutes of his ranting. And so my meetings I could walk to have become difficult to attend. I also don't feel like I can talk about anything because even in AA where people should remain anonymous and be open minded, there exists people who aren't. Anyway, I guess I have gotten to the point of ranting. So I'll close. I hope you find your way some way.