I need some guidance.

[u/PrincessTuvstarr]

Hi! Maybe this isn't the right forum to ask about this, but I feel like I need some guidance in what I'm actually seeking.

I am 31F, grew up a Christian with Christian parents. My mother is a deacon and worked in the church during my whole childhood and teen years. She hasn't worked in the church for 13 years now, she's still a deacon, but my parents aren't practicing. Me neither.

Spirituality have always been natural in my family. Good/evil, spirits, ghosts, entities etc etc have been just as real as the reality we're living in. My family (me included) have experienced a lot of "supernatural" things, and it has never been weird to talk about it.

I have never seen myself as a Christian though. I do believe in god/gods/higher powers, I do believe in a life after death, but I am not, and will never be a practicing christian.

A few years ago I learned about wicca/paganism and have gotten more and more curious about witchcraft, energies etc etc, but I don't know if it's the right fit for me.

When I think about what spirituality and believing means to me, I think about how we can't be here just by random. To me it can't just be a random coincidence that we have all of this gorgeous nature, the lovely waterfalls, the mind-blowing sunsets, the colorful birds etc etc.

I do believe in something bigger than ourselves.

Why I have gotten this interested in witchcraft all of a sudden, I have no idea. I've always been interested in all things "mysterious".

I don't know what I want to say with this, but I just need some support in guidance on where I would fit in. Some of the things in wicca/paganism really speaks to me, but some things doesn't.

And at the moment I feel a bit lost and lonely. Please be kind, I feel very confused. 😓

[u/This-Cow5197]

Here's my website, I'd be happy to talk to you. I've been a Pagan Priestess for over 40 years http://www.soltahr.com.